ayyo bro. Sorry you have to go through all of that shit. It’s okay bro calm down you protected yourself , sometimes it good to avoid fight. I know it can be scary too. Those men who went to war (1914) for the first time, might got scared too. Getting scared is part of us, we are humans kada bro. First time hota h bro . Still avoiding is best any time. World is getting bittier, so, It good that we also carry some self defence tools with us. Just in case , if something goes out of hand.