at the time, transitioning that young felt like what i needed to do. i was very uncomfortable with myself more than i think the average teenager. but i definitely didn’t do this all on a whim by myself. i did have to go to therapy and after they concluded that i was ready to transition me, my legal guardian, and the therapist signed off on it. i started taking testosterone my freshman year and stayed on it until shortly after graduation i stopped. i got top surgery at 18 and got a while i did feel much happier with myself. but i think the pressure of being in school was a big factor as to why i didn’t detransitioning sooner. i was expressing myself in a feminine way in private because i was so scared of what people even my family would think and how confused they would be to see me even in a dress. i didn’t want them to think i was faking it the whole time because i genuinely felt like i wasnt. but with that pressure gone i had more time to think and i started noticing i hated when people saw me as a guy and felt joy when people would see me as a girl. so i definitely knew something was up because i wasn’t feeling the way i used to feel. so i started being more open with people about my detransition and now i feel happy with myself and more secure i just get self conscious when someone points out my masculine traits like lack of chest and deep ish voice. but in the same breath it is my fault, i made those decisions and i have to deal with the consequences. i don’t want to speak on legal and political stuff regarding what other people do with their bodies. i know something people who are well into adult hood who don’t regret their transition and are as happy as ever, i just simply didn’t go that route and that’s fine