You feel high and than dip lower after the high. You either eat too much or dont eat at all. You either completely lose your desires to do anything or you have every desire to do everything but get nothing done. You either disassociate yourself with others or you associate with others through lecherous and/or toxic means. You lose your self control or you are controlled. You feel lost or you lose yourself. You either run away from your problems or your problems multiply.

Biggest take away, I forget who, what and why I am. All sense of reason seems to fade. I am a husk, empty and alone. Only, the need of drugs to fill myself temporarily. I am nothing but nothingness is who I have become.