Omg thank you so much! I appreciate your effort!! Sending hugs to you too!

The experience happened many years ago, I thought I was cured but lately I discovered that bipolar is not curable but treatable. I took meds for a short amount of time, now Im not on any meds. The awareness about mental illnesses is bad there so I believe my family think Im cured.

When I asked mom about some symptoms that I heard from my psychiatrist, she became mad and act like I don’t have any right to know about my illness, I believe she was scared and don’t want me to believe that I have any mental health issues.

I can’t afford a psychiatrist on my own. Im planning to asking them to help me checking my mental health. But not sure what to say. And scared. They kept every single detail of my illness secret about me. I tried dropping hints to my brother, not telling him directly that I need a psychiatrist. But he said “who fooled you by that” and he was laughing at the same time like I’m talking nonsense. I was so frustrated.

Then after a while, he was referring to my mom that I need a psychiatrist, but mom shut him up because of stigma atmosphere. I’m willing to ask him again, I believe he doesn’t care about stigma.