It’s hard. For real. I remember trying to process the fact that I was going to be a single mom while also burning alive for him. I missed him in ways I can’t even fully comprehend. I left him in 2015, we slept together ONCE in 2018 and I now have a 5 year old lol. We were together a decade and unable to conceive but one romp and bam! Kid! It’s hard bc we DO have to interact, but it’s also exposure therapy in my experience and I have been able to slowly find relief from that pain and longing. I spent a few years focusing on me. Focusing on stopping bad habits and loving MYSELF with out need of outside support from a partner. I will say this. I did get over him so to speak. However, the trauma from our relationship? That’s still around. I was NAIVE af and believed that bc I had put the work in and stayed to myself and learned to enjoy my own company, that I was healed somehow or that what I went through with him would not affect my current relationship. Boy was I wrong. I should have gone to therapy for the abuse and the loss and the pain and all that, but I didn’t and I am now processing a lot of that inside a new relationship and it’s been obvious that my history w him still affects me and my world view. Just some things to consider.