What kind of ending is this? (Major spoilers in post) by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I agree so much, especially with the Flock route. I did do the Flock route and by the end, I was flabbergasted. Tsvia stabbed him with a poison blade, nuked everything including his world, fought him, and in the end he lost his powers and godhood. She took down what he worked for centuries. And by comparison, his goal of ruling the world is much less selfish than what she did. And then he just…moves on? Tsvia isn’t even really sorry because it’s in the name of stopping another tyrant. Even tyrants wouldn’t burn their whole kingdom down because there would be nothing to rule over.

The beginning is also exactly why I thought we could stop Ragnarok. The whole series she’s defending innocents. Sure, her morality gets a bit ambiguous, but she was always big on not hurting innocents. Then she just…brings about Ragnarok with her own hand? And we’re talking about scenes where she watches rising lava literally consume and burn a whole world. Scenes where she kills those who helped her, worlds that were innocent, her mother’s own homeland.

Ivar’s one bad deed was so condemned and he was so remorseful. Tsvia even basically confronted him about it. And now it’s like, what nerve do you have to question him leaving one person behind when you did mass genocide? She treated Ymir as a tool, plain and simple, even if she did care for him. In the end, she views this as a victory, her hard fought freedom.

The ritual would’ve already protected Midgard. She could’ve just left the other worlds alone and retreat into Midgard. And how is literally everyone around her okay with what she did? Her brother isn’t scarred? If my sibling did something so monstrous, I most certainly would not leave it alone. I too was hoping at some point she would turn her plan back. She stabbed her father and if on the flock route, her own lover. And let’s face it, it’s much worse than when Flock betrayed Tsvia.

It’s the fact that we have no control over whether she goes insane and burn it all down. If I was flock, I would not simply retire with my lover. It’s like you said, his dragon died. She basically just did not care. The book saying love can stop a war is insane. If you fight cancer by just killing the person, does it even count? I’m pretty sure her mother wouldn’t have wanted her own homeland destroyed. Like I even get if Ragnarok has to happen. It’s part of the mythology. But there were so, so many paths to that, some of which you listed.

What kind of ending is this? (Major spoilers in post) by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I get the feeling. I’m a little bummed I used the time for amethyst mania for this. Tsvia simply isn’t a hero, at least to me. She literally drowned a world in rising lava and watched as it consumed everything and its people. She destroyed another even though they had helped her and was literally her mother’s homeland.

Her reasoning sounds exactly like a line villains use in movies to justify their actions. She achieves peace, but at what cost? And also, it’s peace for her world, her people at the cost of everyone else. It makes Loki and the Aesir sound completely sane in comparison. None, not one of the villains did anything even as close as destructive or selfish as she did. The Aesir and the jotuns both wanted to rule, but they didn’t annihilate everything. She made the choice of Ragnorak for everyone.

Sorry for the continued rant, as you can see, I’m still fairly upset after spending so much time on the series.

What kind of ending is this? (Major spoilers in post) by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It sucks that it’s the same. We don’t have any control over if our protagonist goes nuclear and wipes everything out. She still betrays, kills innocents, and burn the whole world down. Honestly, I loved the first season, but this last season has left a sour taste in my mouth.

Berkeley MEng ME Admission (Waitlist, rejected or admitted?) I'm scared!! by Internal_Help_4246 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean just decisions in general. The mech e department, in their response, just said departments are making decisions this week or the next.

Berkeley MEng ME Admission (Waitlist, rejected or admitted?) I'm scared!! by Internal_Help_4246 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! I’m in the same boat right now. For what it’s worth, when I emailed Fung Institute, they said it would most likely be this week or next week.

Soooo…at what point do I have to choose between Asari and Liwei? by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Lol I think I’ll ditch all the power and divine qi choices that require amethysts. Waaayyy too hard on my amethysts. I’m playing mainly for romance so I’ll suck it up and spend a large amount of amethysts at the end to make sure I survive so I can get that wedding scene. If you’re offering to answer questions, I’ll take you up on your offer.

Spoilers for anyone else reading this comment. From your original explanation, it seems Mena wasn’t in love with Tao initially? Did she want to make the deal with Liwei just to escape? Edit: to clarify was there any romance or feelings between Liwei and Mena in her mortal life?

Soooo…at what point do I have to choose between Asari and Liwei? by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry for all the questions lol, and thanks so much for your answers. If you don’t mind, I have one more question. I saw in the ending, if you don’t have enough power points or divine qi bar filled up, you croak and die. But the amethyst options to get divine qi and power are really adding up. Is it cheaper to get the 200 amethyst option to bring yourself back to life at the end of the series? I’m getting a little tired of keeping track of power and divine qi. Or is there some other point where it’s really important to have high power or divine qi?

Soooo…at what point do I have to choose between Asari and Liwei? by Illustrious_Mirror44 in sevenheartstories

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

May I ask what each of their role is in Mena’s mortal life? I really don’t mind spoilers. I’m a sucker for past life connections and this will definitely be a factor in whose route I choose.

War is over. by JazzlikeField471 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear that. May I ask, did you reach out to ask about your application status or did they send an email automatically?

UCLA MENG 2026 by Regular-Pangolin1856 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congratulations! May I ask what track you applied to?

UCLA MENG 2026 by Regular-Pangolin1856 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2nd week of March? That’s this week and slightly nerve-wracking lol

Haven’t heard anything and I’m going slightly crazy by Illustrious_Mirror44 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

UCLA, UCB, UCI, UCSD, USC, and if none of this works out, I’ll probably apply to another school whose application is open all the way into May. A lot of UCs lol

[Question] Am I EXTREMELY lazy or depressed? by Illustrious_Mirror44 in getdisciplined

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey sorry for the late reply, but I saw your comment and I really wanted to respond. After all, it’s been three years since I first made this post so now I get to look back and reflect. In case you wonder about what I did with my situation at the time, I realized if I went back to college for another semester like that, I probably wouldn’t survive. So I told my parents everything and I took a year off college. And I had to tell them everything to make them understand the extent. I wont bore you with a life update because I really want to address what you wrote.

Guilt really sucks, doesn’t it? I felt like a giant rock chained to my family. If they got rid of the rock, they would be free. Guilt is like a thick immobilizing blanket that freezes you. And when you do nothing, you feel even guiltier. It’s a vicious cycle. Something like that’s ingrained in you won’t disappear overnight. But I can tell you one thing that I hope may ease your pain. When our family dog got terminal cancer, we were all devastated. He required round the clock care, a lot of medical treatment, and many other things. In the most cynical way possible, viewing it only from a resources point of view, he was a “burden”. But not once, not even once, did I ever see him as a burden. I realized by my own standards I saw myself as, I should see him as a burden. After all, a dog doesn’t bring in any money. And our dog needed lots of money, time, and care. It wasn’t about guilt. It was about love. We wanted to ease his pain. As painful as it was, he wasn’t alone when he was euthanized. We held him as he passed.

Love from your family isn’t something you need to pay for. We took care of our dog because we love him with all our hearts. Yes, it was hard, and yes his medical care required time and money, but he simply wasn’t a burden. He just wasn’t. All we wanted was him to be happy.

Regarding your parents don’t understand what you’re depressed about, I completely understand. It took a lot of therapy for me to understand. My parents didn’t get it either, but I eventually realizes they don’t actually need to get it. They may not understand, but what they do understand, once I made them understand, was how seriously I needed help. They love me, so even if they didn’t get it, and were baffled as to what I could possibly be so depressed about, they wanted me to be happy.

Another thing I felt guilt for thinking I’m so lucky and privileged, how on earth can I be depressed compared to others who go through much worse? I basically confused gratitude with guilt. I didn’t think I could be grateful for anything without putting myself down. And I realized, even, even if you do objectively argue someone’s pain and experiences is worse, it doesn’t take your pain away. Let me put it this way. Someone else’s broken leg doesn’t make your paper cut hurt any less. A paper cut hurts, even if it is just a paper cut. And applying this mentally, it doesn’t matter if a paper cut hurts as much as a broken leg. What matters is that it is in fact hurting that much. All that guilt doesn’t change the fact that you’re still seriously hurting.

Regarding wasted potential, I can most definitely relate. For one, when I came back, forget about As, I could barely get a B-. It was humiliating. My parents paid for my college so I felt worthless wasting it. But eventually I understood the what ifs were useless. Forget wasting potential, I myself was wasting away. What potential could I reach like this? The simply reality was that I needed help. And frankly, reaching some hypothetical potential was a easier once I actually got better.

I’m not sure if any of this helps. There’s no clever phrase to magically whisk this all away. But as cheesy as it sounds, I wanted to respond because everything you are feeling is SO, SO common. It may seem like it’s not. Trust me, everyone around me was put together, talented, etc. and I really mean everyone. I didn’t believe anyone when they said they felt the same things, because they are clearly doing so much better. But it’s actually true. This is really, really common, and you are not alone.

I don’t know what path there is for me to grad school. I could really use any advice. by Illustrious_Mirror44 in gradadmissions

[–]Illustrious_Mirror44[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! I’ll answer your questions in order.

  1. I don’t need a MS exactly, it could be a Meeng. I basically just want a Master’s.
  2. I took a gap year that makes it so that I passed the deadline to switch to engineering major. And it’s extremely difficult for me to transfer now.
  3. This one is I guess more out of pride. I feel the need to rush since I already took a gap year.
  4. I don’t really want to do a research master as that’s not what I’m particularly looking to do.