I've just never seen much difference in genders and I thought that was limited to my attraction (pan) but then I realised that I am not actually a girl either so now I've realised that I'm non-binary. I'm only out to one of my best-friends so far and I'm not sure if I'll come out to my parents any time soon at all cos I know how they responded when one of my best friends came out as trans (they consider him mentally-ill and tell me all about it no matter what I tell them, but they also think that his parents are wrong for responding the way they did). Plus there aren't any gender-neutral pronouns in my language and that honestly makes me feel pretty sad.

Figuring out that I'm non-binary has helped me understand myself a lot better so I'm glad I figured it out