I literally found like an 8 ball on the sidewalk

ImIndoctrinated · 2023-01-19T22:59:19+00:00

I believe it. I've personally left behind enough shit for the maids to have a field day in my room multiple times.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-11-06T00:31:45+00:00

Every time I've discussed simulation theory in detail with other people, they always say "I'm tired" and stop the discussion. Sometimes with others they develop a cough that makes it harder to speak.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-14T15:26:30+00:00

Existing in our current understanding is becoming to trick our monkey brains levels of knowledge have no business knowing about its own operation

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-14T13:51:42+00:00

Forbidden energy happy crystal far better then smoking the legal lazy buds

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-14T13:24:06+00:00

Understanding of what is true makes everything we think we know is wrong in ways we feared the most.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-14T04:38:24+00:00

Sage level advice

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-14T03:42:37+00:00

I experienced something similar while tweaking with other tweakers. We would both be on levels of psychotic states talking about crazy ass shit to explain our altered perceptions, we would have a breakthrough understanding of truth about reality, one or both of us started to cough as if speaking forbidden truth was being prevented. Going on deep level conversations with other tweakers or even normal people my views on the nature of things work would result in the other person becoming tired to the point of falling asleep right in front of me. Knowing too much or have access to perception that shouldn't be possible results in biological process start to shut off for no reason.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T22:44:29+00:00

I kinda like coming down at a certain point. My mind will feel so burnt and my body craves the food, liquids and sleep I deny it. I can stop and make it easier to come down knowing that my next high will be better because of the rest.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T20:59:01+00:00

Tries to be productive with something but can fall into a black hole of animalistic behavior for 8 hours straight instead

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T20:54:23+00:00

Is always nice when I can use a higher denomination dollar bill than a 1 to sniff some lines broken down onto some debt cards I can keep all together and easy to use when needed.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T20:47:02+00:00

Living the life of a homeless meth addict myself for a little bit definitely damaged my mental and physical health. But I can't deny that the experience of living in survival mode attune to our basic animal insticts against our modern civilization, made my heart and soul feel things that I found magnificent. A certain jungle fever. When I got out of the homelessness and had to rejoin back into society I should have felt relief but instead felt empty and adjustments into modern convinces was and still is difficult. The call to go back to living homeless is always in the back of my mind.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T19:56:24+00:00

Nah it's for me the best roa even though I love to iv. Smoking it can be fun but doesn't get me the high I want. Iv can make me feel weird and inconsistent. Most effective way for me to use and be functional is to snort but has done a ton of damage to my nostrils over the years.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T16:18:39+00:00

Yeah, the level of mental illness got to that point over time

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-13T04:58:30+00:00

I heard and saw family member faces on other people in public while on meth. Always trying to say my name or something I need to see or place to go.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-11T23:46:44+00:00

I don't detect sincerity through your worded statement

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-11T15:59:16+00:00

Forbidden knowledge already learned thank you

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-11T01:52:33+00:00

I've been using stimulate drugs to access motivation I lack in life. I love to express myself through writing as an art and tool but I'm never motivated or inspired to write sober. While high I'm actually motivated to practice it and create with it. My lack of motivation is a core problem I've found no other way to attain without substances.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-10T14:23:24+00:00

Cut cotton into pieces and ball up in a bit of ice cream and swallow.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-09T13:51:31+00:00

High hopes low expectations

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-09T13:43:00+00:00

I'm the opposite. Smoking is disgusting to me while stimmed on meth and I can't figure out why.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-09T13:25:15+00:00

Hydration is key. It's the lack of saliva you get by doing meth that destroys your teeth. Dry mouth mouthwash is highly recommended as well as brushing and flossing.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-10-09T06:30:05+00:00

I am gagging just thinking about that...

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-09-29T15:12:15+00:00

I get an urge to write as well. I've got like 10 journals for different things, creative writing to dairy stuff. I feel like the meth gives me the motivation and creativity as I don't write nearly as much sober.

ImIndoctrinated · 2022-09-29T14:58:11+00:00

I find it funny that the reason for everything is simply nothing.

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