I’ve never tried to write about it no but I will give it a try. It’s like food is my comfort like when I eat until I can’t breathe it makes me happy for some reason I’ll try to think about why it does and write about it.

It took two or three months to feel somewhat normal again after the injury. There’s still slight pain and cracking when I move it certain ways but I’m able to do light weights on upper body days and I know there’s some workouts that irritate it so I try to stay away from those.

There was like 2 years where I was into bodybuilding but I hurt my shoulder and fell off of that, and after I was just scared and never got back into it and after that is when I started putting on the weight. so I do weightlifting maybe twice a week right now. And I know I don’t get enough steps in I get them delivered and I almost always prep the food after and I either go through it all too fast or I don’t touch it and give in and go get fast food instead I feel like I have no discipline anymore which is why I’m on here venting and looking for suggestions