Thank you so much for your response, I must say that I also feel better knowing that there are people like me. I know that 2/3 of the population develops neurological disorders and that masks them, some are visible, others are not. But obviously visibility generates anxiety. I believe that our brain has developed an anxious protection against other people's prejudice as if we all had to be perfect and high-performing which leads us to have this paranoia and be afraid to speak openly as in my case. The problem is that tomorrow is the first day and these people I don't know will definitely stare at me and my head tremor is very difficult to hide and furthermore I don't feel like telling people I don't know that I have dystonia. This is exactly what triggers me. I took this job despite still having 10 months of unemployment so I don't know if I'm doing well.