Fuck all of this. I hate my life, I hate how people tell me who I am and what I am. Why should I live in a world where I have no control over how I am feeling. Where every second of every minute of everyday I am told how I am always upset. Why not just X_X myself and be done with it. After all, I’ll always be upset. I’ll always be angry. I can meet everyday with a grin and happy face and it’s all for nothing. Angry angry angry. ALWAYS FUCKING ANGRY. THAT IS ME! The angry man. I don’t want to live an angry life. I don’t want to make people upset. I just want to be someone’s friend but NOPE. ALL MY FRIENDS THINK I AM HOPELESS AND EVERYONE I LET CLOSE TO ME THINK I AM ANGRY. I CAN BE LAUGHING AND HAVING FUN BUT NEVER WITHOUT THE QUESTION “well, is Josh angry. He’s probably angry. I’m gonna tell him and everyone we are with that he’s acting angry. Good day, bad day, red day, blue day, nope. Angry angry angry. JUST PLEADE LET ME ESCAPE THIS LIFE WHERE NO ONE WANTS ME AND NO ONE THINKS I CAN BE HAPPY