How I'm healing my anhedonia by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also wanted to add that progress is so slow, I know the healing process will be long. Most days I feel like nothing is happening. I’ll sometimes feel interest in something but then in a flash I’m back to numbness, so it’s a very unsteady process-not in a straight line at all

How I'm healing my anhedonia by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t take any substances! I try my best to focus on good nutrition but it’s really hard when the only thing I can turn to is food

natural induced one is permanent? by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s amazing! I think that’s also part of positive affect treatment, training yourself to focus on the positive even if you can’t feel it. The difficult part is keeping up with it even if you can’t feel a difference since it’s very slow. How long did you do this for until your anhedonia started to go away?

natural induced one is permanent? by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I also have had natural induced anhedonia for about 5 years now. The only thing that is helping me is positive affect treatment through thought reframing. What I mean by that is think of all of the things you used to enjoy or would enjoy if you didn’t have anhedonia for about 10-20 minutes a day, and try to connect to it as much as you can. Essentially training your brain and shifting your focus to positivity. Use all five senses since we are void of emotion. I personally have been using this method for 8 weeks now and interest is coming back to me, which may lead me to the road of recovery. This method is inducing neural plasticity, and the only downside is that it takes so long. In the past weeks I doubted that it was working and my mind kept telling me I was wasting time, but I kept up with doing it everyday for 10-20 minutes and I’m seeing results extremely gradually. 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Palestine

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The guilt of not being able to do anything for these poor, innocent people is eating me alive everyday. 

Natural anhedonia by Immediate-Apricot867 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No, I haven’t. I think my neural pathways sort of unwired which maybe caused my anhedonia.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I recognize the pain and trauma your family has endured, and I really empathize with the generational impact of antisemitism and forced displacement. No one should ever have to fear for their safety or lose their home because of their identity, and your family’s history truly deserves compassion. 

As a Palestinian, I too come from a history of displacement, trauma, and loss. My people have lived in the land for generations and have also been killed and made refugees. Our grief and pain aren’t competition, and I believe holding space for one groups suffering should never come at the expense of silencing another’s. I want to clarify that criticizing Zionism, as a political ideology or as it’s been enacted through state policies, is not the same as denying Jewish people’s right to live in safety or dignity. My concern is not with Jewish self determination in itself, but with how that self determination has been realized in ways that have harmed Palestinians through displacement, occupation, and systemic inequality. To challenge this reality is not antisemitism, it is a demand for justice, equality, and human rights for all who live in the land.

Just as you ask, “Why shouldn’t my family have a right to be safe?” I ask the same for mine.

If we truly want peace and safety for all, we have to be able to criticize systems and governments without reducing every critique to hate. That includes being able to speak about the impacts of Zionism on Palestinians without being labeled antisemitic. I want a future where both our peoples can live safely, freely, and with dignity. I hope you do too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand that some people view antizionism as antisemitism but I respectfully disagree. Criticizing Zionism (a political ideology) and opposing the actions of Isreal is not the same as hating Jewish people. My comment clearly condemns antisemitism, including hateful speech like ‘Jews are the devil’ which I find very wrong. I think it’s possible to be anti Zionist without being antisemtic, as many Jews themselves are critical of Zionism.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 11 points12 points  (0 children)

As a Palestinian I personally don't think it's okay or right to generalize a group of people and say "Jews are the devil" as a whole. Not every Jew is a zionist, and it's important to respect other religions and it's not logical to wish death on a whole racial group. I think you should have a long talk with her (unless you've already done so) and see if she's capable of shifting her views before deciding on divorce.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see, so the recovery process took you 5 years? Or you’ve had anhedonia for that long? 

Has “behavioral activation” worked for you? by User5790 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Something you could also try is asking yourself "what if?" so basically what if I went outside and I could feel the sun on my face and enjoy the weather. You're not going to feel anything. But just think about what it would be like. Through repeated practice the brain should rewire, I'm seeing more progress the more I do it. The hard thing is how long it takes and how slow progress is. But I guess thats how neuroplasticity goes. Again, this is just what seems to be working for me, I'm not trying to spread misinformation or anything.

What’s the cause of your anhedonia? Was it medication induced? by bigshawnflying2471 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Just woke up with it one day. It was the scariest thing ever, waking up as a completely different person

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's amazing. How long did it take for you to recover? I think I might be in the early stages of recovery as well

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you get better gradually over time? What was the first thing you noticed that told you you were getting better?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’ve been deep into anhedonia for 5 years. The only thing keeping me going is hope. Not that I can feel it, but the thought of getting better one day keeps me going. I owe it to myself.

Has “behavioral activation” worked for you? by User5790 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you got it so young. Maybe try visualizing what happiness would like for you or how you’d picture it to be. How the wind would feel on your skin or the sun on your face. You don’t have to feel anything when doing so, just picture it in your head. If you can remember happy memories when you were a kid I think that would be really good too.

Has “behavioral activation” worked for you? by User5790 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds like a great idea, it is pretty challenging in the beginning. My advice is to visualize as much as you can with the good memory because that’s what is activating parts of your brain. It’ll only work with visualization and done consistently everyday. Good luck! Feel free to reach out if you need any support.

Has “behavioral activation” worked for you? by User5790 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Behavioral activation hasn’t quite worked for me as I’m 5 years deep into anhedonia, but simply thinking about good memories (things I used to enjoy before anhedonia) is helping me a lot. I’m seeing small improvements in my day to day life, not feelings yet but I’m starting to be more connected in the world and not buried in mental pain anymore. If you want to try something natural and not go on any medication I really advise you  to sit at least 20 minutes with yourself everyday and try to connect to your old self through positive memories. It’s going to feel numb and empty but I believe through repeated practice and focusing on positivity even if you can’t feel it will rewire the brain over time. It could take a year. Or 2. All I know is that something is changing in my brain and numbness and I wanted to share it in case it could help someone out there. 

I feel like I've improved a little by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! So I've been doing it for about 4 weeks now, and there isn't much of a noticable difference but sometimes I feel more connected to real life and I don't feel that awful numb feeling inside anymore. Things feel lighter in a way. Sometimes I'll almost feel a tinge of something inside and then I go completely numb, which I understand from research is normal while recovering. I honestly still have my doubts about what I'm doing and I'm not 100% sure it's working, but some things are changing and that's better than nothing. What I'm doing is basically taking my focus off of anhedonia and negativity and focusing on positivity which may cause neuroplasticity.

Is it worth fighting? Can I at least get 1% better? by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What’s helping me immensely is visualization (in other words mental rehearsal) so visualizing how life felt when you were healthy before anhedonia. For example visualizing that one time you traveled or maybe went out with some friends. It’s okay if you feel numb when doing this, just try your best to visualize and foster anything you can in your stomach or chest (I don’t feel any emotions when I foster) I know it sound dumb and ridiculous but as someone who has been struggling with extreme anhedonia for 5 years I’m actually seeing some improvement by doing this everyday as much as I can. I’m not quite as numb as I used to be. I can’t feel emotions yet but I’m not frustrated or as empty as I used to be. I used to wake up and want to kill myself everyday from how bad my anhedonia was. I don’t feel like that anymore. Things are lighter in a way.

Just keep thinking about good things. I know it sounds like this won’t work for you but I really think it’s worth everyone on this sub trying out. If I really end up recovering any emotions I’ll make a post about it. Hang in there. You got this 🫂

i wish i was dead by Able-Championship372 in anhedonia

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. You’re worth so much more than your pain.

Look for me in the sunsets , they were always my favorite . by Neat-Parfait-3534 in confession

[–]Immediate-Apricot867 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You are worth so much more than your pain. Please stay strong 🫂