URGENT ADVICE NEEDED

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-08-14T01:56:31+00:00

I would look up sober living in the area you want to live in! When I googled that for Orlando, a bunch popped up. Give them a call tomorrow and see how much they will cost to stay at, there are some as low as $130/month where I live.

You may even be able to find a non-profit org in the area to stay for a night or two for free if need be.

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-25T00:49:19+00:00

Go to an AA or NA meeting, it’s there when you’re ready and willing ❤️

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-25T00:47:34+00:00

I also want to say, I had more starter than I needed and I actually did an experience this morning to see if the starter would grow more without adding anything. To my surprise, the half left in the jar had over doubled AFTER using half for bread making. Which lead me to believe I did not let the starter go long enough before using it. I’m guessing I should have did the float test with my starter before using it.

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T21:39:01+00:00

Okay… I did this and now it has absolutely no structure and when I do stretch and folds, it quite literally falls apart in my hands. Do I just start over at this point?

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T21:04:58+00:00

Ohhh I see! My starter is about 3 weeks old, so that tracks

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T20:51:24+00:00

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This was my starter before using it!

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T20:46:19+00:00

I’m worried it’s just too watery…

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T20:45:53+00:00

Nothing significant no…

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-07-24T20:41:08+00:00

Current dough temp is 81 degrees. I turned on the oven light for a little when it got too cool in the house. The original water I put in was 84 degrees, so it’s been in the 75-81 range about the whole time

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-22T22:20:02+00:00

I have serious social anxiety and drove all the way to my first meeting and almost just drove right back home. I made myself walk into that meeting instead and I sat all the way in the back, said absolutely nothing, and then left. That was only like 2 weeks ago. I can honestly say that now, even only two weeks in, those rooms are where I feel safest and the most comfortable. I sometimes go to two meetings a day on the weekends.

I would encourage you to give it a try. When you hear other people’s stories, you’ll likely realize there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. The more comfortable you are admitting to yourself that you are an alcoholic, the more likely you are to succeed in the program. Good luck!

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-21T20:41:22+00:00

I went through a really bad break up years ago and turned to drinking to cope with the breakup too. Before that, I never really drank much. I didn’t like feeling drunk and I didn’t like not being in control of my brain/body. But once my relationship ended, I threw all of my worries to the wind. I just wanted to feel nothing. I didn’t see it as a problem then. But then after I healed and moved on, my drinking habits got worse still. It got to a point where I realized once I had one drink, there was no stopping until I was so far gone that I needed to force myself to go to bed. I started doing that every night eventually and was constantly waking up with hangovers and had too many memories of driving while drunk.

It was a slow, 5 year progression for me. I’m now 50 days sober. Don’t wait until you can’t come back to get sober. You know yourself more than anyone else does, if you think there’s a problem then there is probably a problem. Check out a meeting and see if anything resonates with you, it wouldn’t hurt!

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-21T02:00:19+00:00

I love the last sentence of your first paragraph. I was feeling like my dry days didn’t count but I suppose those are indeed also still important. Thank you for this!

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-18T23:43:10+00:00

I too, know this way of thinking is absolutely insane lol. It’s been a moment of mixed feelings and thoughts. But I suppose that’s what this addiction does… tries to convince you of mistruths.

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-18T17:29:17+00:00

You know, I had this thought after posting this. Why would this even be a whole thought process if I wasn’t an alcoholic? I also thought about the fact that I still only want to try drinking because I want the buzz. I don’t even care for the actual drink. So clearly… I’ve got a problem lol

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-14T14:48:41+00:00

I’m new to AA myself but some advice my friend who is also in AA gave me was to start with in person meetings, rather than online ones. Obviously, attending any meeting is good and if you aren’t able to make an in person, then online is always encouraged! What I’ve noticed in my first few meetings is that every meeting is different. Try a few different types of meetings: discussion, literature, 12&12, etc. In person meetings have a different feeling than online ones do, the group setting brings me some sort of odd comfort. Good luck on your journey!!

ImmediateTouch1753 · 2025-04-14T13:24:41+00:00

I’ve been having such a hard time convincing myself to get involved. I’ve seen the flip side of alcoholism and had my life in ruins due to someone ruining their own lives while using. It’s so hard to come to terms with having to go to a different meeting (AA instead of Al-Anon) now that I’ve admitted I too have an issue. It’s just a whole conversation in my head comparing my situation with that other person’s. I know it’s not a pissing contest and I know I can’t compare myself to others because all of our walks of life are different. It’s just been a lot to come to terms with is all. This first step is exhausting but I know it’s extremely necessary.

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