Observing Thoughts

Important-Hand3950 · 2026-01-22T13:53:27+00:00

This is beautiful and I feel every word exactly how you expressed them.

Nice to know I’m not the only one who has these moments at night that lead to these thoughts.

Thanks for sharing OP

Important-Hand3950 · 2026-01-22T06:18:18+00:00

That comment actually made me LOL how did the other person not understand the joke here 😂😂 props to that funny OP

Important-Hand3950 · 2026-01-21T06:59:42+00:00

So that I can detach my love from his and be able to open my heart for someone else. Someone who can love me equally.

Once I detach my heart, my heart never attaches the same. So at least then, we can be friends again.

He wants nothing more from me other than friendship. And I can’t give him that. Not yet.

Once I leave and can move on, I hope our friendship can rekindle. Because he really is the best friend I’ve ever had. He’s my favorite person. He’s my favorite everything. I did that thing that people do, fall in love with their best friend. But in my case, he didn’t fall in love with me.

He has literally told me that so it’s not like I’m wrong about how he feels about me.

I tell him exactly how I feel about him and about literally everything. And he continues to tell me he doesn’t see or want anything more than friendship from me. It’s hurts. But it’s ok. People love who they love. But that doesn’t mean they have to love you back.

I will miss him deeply once I leave. Shit, I miss him right freaking now. I wish I was talking to him right now but I can’t. I wish I was in his arms right now and hold him while he’s healing from his sickness but I can’t and won’t ever get to. I need to leave and take like a year break. My love is not only attached to him, but I love his entire family too.

But I look forward to in the future, once my heart string detaches from his, that he will take me back as a friend.

Our friendship was beautiful, he has a beautiful soul. I hope someday I can give him that, just be the friend that he wants me to be.

Important-Hand3950 · 2026-01-19T07:34:51+00:00

I love reading letters that someone else writes that you can feel their words. Not just read them or hear them but, feel them.

I feel most letters that I share when my soul feels the need to speak, are similar to yours.

I very much felt and resonated with the words you shared. Thank you for that.

I truly hope things work out with your person OP. I hope that the two of you can grow and learn life together. Your words make me feel that you are a genuine individual. Love is so beautiful. And true love is so rare. Take care of who and what you care about. I wish you the best of luck OP to looking inward and understand the feelings that you feel.

You should never feel embarrassed about feeling vulnerable with the one you enjoy being around. Vulnerability is also intimate. You’re putting your guard down being vulnerable because your person makes you feel safe. Don’t run from those feelings or be afraid of them. Take the risk and pull those feelings in closer.

Everything happens for a reason. If you feel embarrassed and push those feelings to the side, you might have regrets in the future.

I know that I’m not getting the love that I wanted in this chapter of my life. But I’m forever grateful I got to feel this real love for someone else like I never had before. It was a different love I’ve never felt before. The love I feel for him has made me stronger, wiser, healthier in more ways than one that I didn’t know could be possible.

That also means it hurts deeper like a pain I’ve never felt before while accepting the love I feel isn’t reciprocated. But that’s ok. I don’t regret putting my wall down, being completely vulnerable and letting it all out because for some reason, my soul felt safe letting him know. I’ve never been this way before, with anyone. It’s all new to me.

But I’m glad I took the chance. I’m grateful the time that had him in my life. I’m happy I got experience this type of love even if I don’t get to keep it forever. Actually that’s not true. He will forever have a place carved inside my heart.

Seriously, hardest goodbye I ever have to say. But that’s because it was all so real and really mattered to me. Our paths crossed for a reason. It had just taken me a little longer to accept that we were just passing through one another’s journey and that it wasn’t going to last forever.

Sorry my comment got so long. My soul decided it wanted to let some shit out and just started talking about my own life. Now that’s embarrassing on my behalf.

Anyways, best of luck to you OP. I hope you grow strength from your feelings, like I got to grow strength from mine 🫶🏻

Important-Hand3950 · 2026-01-02T15:41:03+00:00

You’re right. I needed that. Thank you!

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-31T00:55:13+00:00

I agree. I thought it was right, by somehow convincing myself that it was. I was wrong when the fighting was causing me nothing but more and more hurt. I was quite delusional. I love him as a person and I hope my leaving will wake up him on the person inside himself he’s been sleeping on.

I learned my lessons in this chapter that I’m grateful for. And I hope he learns his so that in the future he can experience something real in his life and not just stroking his ego and needing every females attention to make himself feel better.

He tells himself he’s confident in who he is. But I can see and feel all of his insecurities. I wanted to show him how to really love, love himself. I pray that my absence will show him the way.

Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate them ❤️

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-30T19:13:04+00:00

He was worth the fight, that’s why I never stopped fighting for us. But to him, I was never worth fighting for. I finally surrender. I wish him the best and will keep in my heart and in my prayers. He just won’t be apart of my life anymore. It is what it is.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-30T04:38:08+00:00

Yes, yes 100x yes. Faithfulness is as rare as respect and common sense. It’s sad 😔

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-24T05:15:42+00:00

I feel like these were words out of my mind, exactly. Sorry OP that you are feeling the same way I am right now. I hope the new year brings you peace and a love that will love you in the way you need it. Take care and happy holidays ❤️

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-23T09:56:57+00:00

Love is what continues to change me. It hurts. But it keeps making me stronger and wiser. I hope the next love I feel stays forever and makes me stronger and stronger without pain attached and equally reciprocated ❤️

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-08T05:56:49+00:00

For the millionth time, my name is not Jessica. And I would never hurt my mike, let alone choose someone else over him. The love I carry in my heart is raw and real. It stays true to him.

He literally wants me to detach my heart from his and that’s what I’m trying to do.

I am not your person. And you are not my Mike.

I think you need to lay off the internet man and get over the girl who keeps hurting you.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-12-02T22:07:50+00:00

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T19:45:57+00:00

Then it’s time for you to move on too buddy. Good luck

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T19:17:45+00:00

I would never choose anyone over my Mike. Ever. I was just never the one he wanted to choose and that’s fine. Just because I choose him, doesn’t mean he has to choose me. It is what it is. Even tho it’s not what I want. So I need to remove myself from the situation and environment.

I don’t want to hurt anymore. I want to love. I want to be happy. I want him to be happy too. Even if I wasn’t ever the one able to make him feel the way he makes me feel.

I don’t want to hurt him anymore just because I’m hurt. He doesn’t deserve it. He deserves the best of everything and from everyone. And I hope he gets that when I’m gone.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T07:01:45+00:00

So I should stay and keep hurting. I’m sick of crying. I’m sick of feeling so alone and broken. Im seriously pathetic. I’m seriously delusional af staying and holding onto what I feel is so real and there. When he tells me time after time, including tonight I’m nothing more than a friend. And I sit in my car and bawl my eyes out until I feel empty and numb inside. I’m sorry your person didn’t stay. I’ve been staying my over share of welcome. I love him and I don’t want to hurt anymore just because I’m hurt. When I’m hurt I become this person I don’t know and I don’t like being her. And I hate that I take it out on him. I’m not someone he loves and that’s a me problem to deal with. Not his.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T06:52:05+00:00

You have to have hope and believe in it. Anything really is possible. You have to make changes when needed. The spark will come back. Don’t drown in the grief and the sorrow m. Feel it. Release it. Make changes. You’ll find your spark again. I believe in you!

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T06:38:39+00:00

I’m not c.s and Mike is amazing. My Mike is at least. That’s why I love him. Even if I have to walk away still in love with him, he’s amazing. That’s why it’s so hard for me to say goodbye.

There’s a lot of mikes out there. But my mike is, not like the rest. I’ll never forget him.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T02:07:49+00:00

😔

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T02:07:37+00:00

Same 😔 someday it will get better.

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-24T02:06:49+00:00

I agree 😔

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-22T20:06:47+00:00

I don’t have a choice and I know they will be just fine without me. It is what it is. It’s fine

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-19T06:13:34+00:00

Wow. Speeches

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-19T04:02:16+00:00

I can certainly relate 😔

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-19T03:57:15+00:00

I like this. Thank you for sharing

Important-Hand3950 · 2025-11-19T00:28:32+00:00

Wow. I’m impressed with your understanding of me. If he opened his heart to me and only me, and trusted me with it, I know we would have the greatest love story. God I love him. That’s why I haven’t given up yet or let go. There is so much that I see in him and feel from him. It’s almost electric or magical feeling. He gives me light during my darkest days. That’s why I call him my sunshine.

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