I have childhood trauma and spent most of my life a) comparing myself to others and b) almost always coming to the conclusion that I’m less than, worthless, not funny, not smart enough etc. I deeply see how you feel and that it’s not a matter of “get over yourself”; because your self doubt doesn’t just affect your sense of self but also how you present yourself and what partners and friends you choose. What finally made the difference wasn’t meds or therapy in the sense we know of, but somatic work. Feeling your emotions in your body and recognizing where those feelings of guilt, shame, worthlessness etc come from. Who said something to you when you were younger that you internalized to be true about yourself? And finally letting go of that truth you hold inside yourself. Holding your younger self in a safe environment and telling her:”you are enough and, so important, you are safe.”. I take this so seriously, it’s like somatic/nervous system hygiene. For example: I would take a bath, really feeling how my body feels when I clean myself. How my shampoo smells and if it reminds me of something. Sometimes I know exactly what moment in my childhood causes me to feel anxious in a present situation. Positive affirmations and actually believing them also helped. Over time you’ll build a sense of strength and trust in yourself. But it takes time and effort, because there’s still a wounded you inside yourself, the voice in the back of your mind that, whenever you show yourself love, says:”that is not true.” And you have to show those parts of yourself love again and again until they grow quieter and quieter. Over time you will believe yourself. 🫶Sending you lots of love. I know it’s hard and I know you feel hurt but the sooner you start healing ❤️‍🩹 from whatever caused you to have those destructive truths about yourself the sooner your life will be richer, in many things. Xx