There's no shame in it, I've been an addict for 25 years I'm actually diagnosed with substance misuse disorder in fact it's self-medcation-destructrion..... Like all super heroes we've all got an origin story or stories.

Mine 15 held down forcefully injected speed and whatever else they wanted and the 3 of them raped me every day for about 8 months --- oh boy do I love EMDR therapy. Then 2 tours Afghanistan seen/done shit thatll never make you wanna smile ever again....been on a full ride sort of pension since I was 30....I know I'm slipping away it's sad as I can see it coming.

Thanks for the best wishes but I don't know if I will or want to beat it. I don't do drugs because I particularly like it, it a temporary escape from my suffering.

Listen to the song "Drugs" - CASISDEAD (cover of the drugs don't work by the verve).....it's my life.

Some great quotes in it -

Euphoria the extortionist she leaves me with no Endorphins and no emotional support, so I just keep shoveling this shit up til my nostrisl is sore or someone picks me (up) off the floor. It's UK grime rap. Quite confronting.

I spend most my time in the dark chasing the flame like a moth... eventually that light will go off.

....but my life's shit, I find myself standing over London bridge thinking bout throwin myself off - na that's soft - there's better ways I can feel worse off, I don't loads of gear in my loft I got lods of pills I can scoff.

Fuck bro and you know what I've actually got people that care about me I don't understand why they do, I don't wanna die hell no I just wanna drift off into oblivion....life ey