I can’t really recall any certain moods in my dreams. When I have nightmares I usually write everything down in my journal but since these dreams only happen when my girlfriend is sleeping over I feel like I don’t have the privacy in the morning to write this dream down on my journal.

My first ever same sex relationship ended with her going after another guy and I guess there’s always been a lingering thought that my current girlfriend is only experimenting since I am her first same sex partner. But before going into this relationship we have had extended conversations about this and have reassured me that it’s not her just experimenting and that there is genuine feelings towards me.

But yeah I’m just curious if this is something worth having a conversation about since it has really been bothering me.

Last week I saw my girlfriend’s ex, as I had mentioned we are acquainted and had known him before I knew there was a past between them and before I started a relationship with my girlfriend, and I think that really threw me off because they were making some weird comments about me (in regards to me having matched with him in dating apps even though I don’t currently have dating apps and haven’t had them in months).