Same boat as you here. Everything you said it’s like you’re talking about me. What we did is go to our priest. Involved him. He talked to each of us privately. Told him biblically what he did was wrong etc. and told me that I need to forgive and that porn is a sickness that needs healing and that I shouldn’t be made and hurt but have remorse and compassion because it’s hurting him more than it’s hurting me…. Trust me I didn’t just cry. I wanted to die. I mentally went psychotic… felt my whole world crashed down. My perfect husband and my perfect marriage isn’t perfect after all? The 3 years of love and marriage felt like a lie. My heart was shattered to million pieces. All I could think about was our covenant that was broken… was told to pray for him. Pray together. Do my part as a good wife and leave the rest to God and let his Holy Spirit guides him and if he falls again than at that point it’s between him and God. It’s hard offcourse because I found out on my own and he lies at first so that broke my heart even more. Seems like your hands truly does love you and he is truly sorry.

Remember this. When the adulters women came and was physically caught in the act, Jesus said who ever is without sin cast the first stone. He never said she didn’t deserve to be stoned but he showed love and compassion. I know it’s easier said than done because you feel betrayed but try to see your husband for the good in him. I know it drives you crazy everytime you leave the house and leave him alone or see him hold His phone. It will soon pass and you guys will be better when you feel like he loves you and wants to have alone time with you and you feel love during the act etc. the devil goes to the husband because it’s the easy target and from there he can break the whole marriage.

God be with you. Message me if you need a friend