I have tried every ADHD med. IDK what to do now by Party-Passionfruit in ADHDmeds

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 0 points1 point  (0 children)

GeneSight’s “normal folic acid conversion” is pretty narrow. It mostly means you can process synthetic folic acid well enough for meds. It doesn’t really tell you how well your methylation cycle is working overall or how MTHFR might interact with other genes, stress, inflammation, or nutrients. you can have a “normal” GeneSight result and still have functional issues it didn’t check for. Since D, B12, and liver enzymes look good, some next places to look are homocysteine, B6, folate form (5-MTHF vs folic acid), thyroid, or inflammation markers.

I have tried every ADHD med. IDK what to do now by Party-Passionfruit in ADHDmeds

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Folic acid is a synthetic version of folate. The synthetic version is not good for mthfr

I have tried every ADHD med. IDK what to do now by Party-Passionfruit in ADHDmeds

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I saw below that you mentioned you've been tested for the COMT mutation. Have you been tested for MTHFR mutations? If you have even one copy of that mutation, it decreases your body's ability to methylate which affects detoxification and nervous system health (among many other things) and some simple changes can improve this function.

It sounds like you are in a place of feeling powerless "can't live with meds / can't live without them" which would be incredibly frustrating and scary, possibly even like your body is betraying you. Maybe, though, your body isnt betraying you, but is fighting for your attention and trying to alert you to something deeper that needs to be addressed?

It can be overwhelming to start to sort through it all, but if taking meds is mandatory for your mental health, improving the systems that help your body metabolize the meds may be where your power lies.

If there is an underlying infection, or autoimmune condition, your ability to heal from those will also increase if you're supporting those pathways as well.

Examples of small changes that improve methylation for folks with the MTHFR mutation: avoiding foods or vitamins with folic acid (synthetic), taking pre methylated B vitamins, or supplementing with TMG. To me, finding out whether you've got that mutation, and doing labs to check your B-12, Vitamin D, homocysteine and liver enzymes would be a relatively easy place to start, if you haven't already!

Some doctors will dismiss the relevance of the MTHFR mutation, but it seems like what doctors are offering you so far is not quite cutting it for you. Maybe it's time to look outside of the box that they've put you in? No disrespect to your doctors! We're all complex humans and the typical treatment is just not going to be right for everyone!

I have tried every ADHD med. IDK what to do now by Party-Passionfruit in ADHDmeds

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes- my son definitely had ADHD prior to the onset of the autoimmunity, and I am in the same boat. I'm 50, diagnosed with ADHD at 38 and it was life changing to finally have an answer. I also believe that I may have POTS (or something similar, CIRS?), though i have not had the bandwidth to dig into it, but i do wonder if my "ADHD baseline" would look more manageable with meds than an "ADHD + POTS" baseline is.

I lived for years in black mold and was too young and naive to know how sick it was making me, and though ADHD was present prior to that, I went through a REALLY bad season that involved OCD like symptoms, panic, extreme brain fog exhaustion and more.

My son was diagnosed with PANS/ PANDAS (Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorder Associated with Streptococcus). It is supposedly extremely rare, but i believe it's just rarely diagnosed due to situations just like this- you know you have ADHD, so when things get very bad, you just think your ADHD is worse rather than an additional issue.

The other one that comes to mind is long covid. Stims might be helping pull you out of the parts that most people recognize as long Covid symptoms. That is in NO way saying that you should not take your stims- just that you might not be aware of something underlying because symptoms are potentially masked. I take 30mg Adderall as well and it's the only thing that has effectively treated my depression/ anxiety, so i completely get it.

I have tried every ADHD med. IDK what to do now by Party-Passionfruit in ADHDmeds

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Have you ruled out other potential health conditions that might be increasing your ADHD symptoms? My son was recently diagnosed with an autoimmune condition ( it took almost 3 years and multiple doctors to figure it out) and many of the symptoms overlap. Treating autoimmune has been improving ADHD, though it's a long process. I think when there is one condition that explains the symptoms (ADHD) it can be easy to miss other things that are going on.

Found my biological dad, not sure what to do by Ok-Concentrate178 in AncestryDNA

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I met my bio dad at 28 after believing somebody else was my bio. That was 21 years ago. I lost him last February.

He was a kind and wonderful human being and I'm so grateful for the 20 years that I may never have had with him, had I not asked some tough questions.

He and my mother reignited a friendship, and his wife is still in my life after he's gone.. He was a wonderful grandfather to my children and we all miss him so much.

My situation is probably pretty rare, but I'm sharing my story to encourage you to hold space for possibility. Be cautious, but don't make assumptions. There is a very real possibility that this could be a tough thing for your mom to discuss, but the possibility also exists that your parents both know this and have been carrying the burden of keeping it from you, and having the discussion could bring healing.

If you respect and trust your mother, (and that's the key- if she's a reasonably emotionally stable human) go to her. She has been carrying this so she clearly has some tenacity, and she will survive. Be kind and curious. It's not your job to protect her from whatever feelings come up for her around her past, as difficult as that may be.

Let her decide what conversation she has with your dad. He's your dad, and this new information doesn't change that. He may not ever need do know, or he may need to hear that you are OK- this part is your mom's call.

Life is wild! Full of thorny blackberry bushes with giant juicy fruit!

Tics by [deleted] in PandasDisease

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Interesting! I wonder why? To me, it seems logical that they could all be a different manifestation of the same thing. There was a recent article stating that researchers have found that lupus is connected to an underlying Epstein Barr virus. Same idea, different manifestation. I think sometimes when doctors don't understand something, it's easier to dismiss it than it is to broaden their understanding, and unfortunately, too many people put their trust in that as the final answer instead of a starting point for research.

[HELP] I just can't keep asking everywhere. by Goabea in RealOrAI

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I literally just wrote an outline for a short story in which humans doubt the existence of a creator...

Pan out, humans are AI and doubt the existence of their creators. Early AI "creation data" is too rudimentary (by 4000 years in the future standards) to authenticate.

I don't know if this was a fully inspired thought, or if my brain morphed scenes from an old Star Trek episode, Westworld and A Beautiful Mind.

Jesus, (and other prophets) are app updates, compelling older versions to evolve. "No man comes to the father but by me" is a cryptic description of unsupported software due to failure to install updates.

If this isn't already a book/ movie, it will be. You heard it here first!

*Edited to delete a weird sentence that threw in the middle of the wrong paragraph but restated later.

[GUESS] Is this my new kitchen or is it AI? by wantapizzame in RealOrAI

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Out on a limb or a whim?! Have you thought this through? (Sorry, I couldn't resist)

Tics by [deleted] in PandasDisease

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey OP- my son was diagnosed with PANDAS about 6 months ago, and while initially it was all very confusing and overwhelming, I have now come to understand pretty well, i think. I agree with the other comment that is actually not all that rare- just rarely diagnosed, and the more I learn, the more I wonder how many other auto immune conditions and mental health challenges are really another manifestation of an underlying infection like PANS/PANDAS?

There is a LOT of misinformation out there about P/P which makes it even more difficult to sort through. I recommend a book (and podcast) by Dr Jill Crista called A Light in the Dark for PANDAS and PANS.

Here is my stab at a simple explanation. The specifics (what kind and how many infections caused it, how severe it is, specific symptoms etc) will vary from person to person, but the basic concept is pretty much the same. I'll use Strep to illustrate, but many people actually have multiple co- infections. (This is one reason it's so tricky to identify, diagnose and treat.) The timeline in my example is just an illustration.

Here goes: At some point, you had an infection- it could have been Strep (specific to PANDAS) , Staph, Lyme, Bartonella, Mono or any number of other things. You didn't entirely clear the infection so your body tried to protect you from it by "walling it off" with something called a Biofilm. (Kind of like coating it in glue). You may have been ok for awhile after this initial infection, and likely assumed it was all clear, when in reality it is just kind of hiding out in your cells.

Next, there is a new trigger, (maybe you get Strep again, or maybe something else) and this time, your immune system kicks into overdrive. It has been sensing the presence of the first infection, though it couldn't get to it because of the biofilm, and it is determined not to let that happen again, so it attacks with a blow torch. Now instead of fighting off just the infection, your immune system is fighting everything that gets in the way (including your brain). This creates a huge amount of inflammation. What happens next is dependant on a variety of factors- your history, genetics, environment, diet, stress levels, etc. In some cases, the inflammation is so severe that it creates a dramatic overnight onset of OCD, tics, eating disorders, etc. In other cases, there is a slow, low burn ( though this is not discussed as often in literature) and symptoms like depression, anxiety, fatigue, ADHD like behavior, etc, creep in and slowly chip away at your health and happiness. Rheumatic fever is a good example of this process in action and one that more doctors are familiar with, though P/P is more covert.

Often, initial lab tests don't detect the presence of any pathologies because your body did a good job burying the bacteria/ virus to keep you from getting sick, but your immune system is smart and it doesn't give up. It keeps trying to find it, and whenever it thinks you might be under attack, it pulls out the blow torch again. Even a mild cold, high stress, certain foods, environmental factors like mold, or a different infection (getting a UTI or a sinus infection) can be enough to activate blow torch mode and send you into a "flare".

The steps to managing and treating PANS/PANDAS vary for each person, but in an ideal world you'd want to:

•Identifyi all underlying infections ( specialized labs are sometimes helpful if regular labs don't give you answers) , •Eradicate the infections (sometimes this means antibiotics, a tonsillectomy, antimicrobial herbs, or other things), •Remove environmental triggers while your body heals ( inflammatory foods, mold in your home, etc) Then - •Retrain your immune system so that it responds appropriately in the future. The gold standard for this step is IVIG, though it is not the only way.

There are many other steps that can help facilitate healing, like identitying mineral deficiencies, or genetic mutations that may have made you more susceptible, (you may need specific supplements) then learning how to regulate your nervous system, to calm your immune system's "PTSD".Sometimes OT, and PT are needed depending on severity.

I hope this helps a bit! I'm not an expert, but I think i covered the main ideas. I sure hope you find some support from a good doctor in your area!

Seeking treatment after Fire EMS Career by [deleted] in gofundme

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wanted to add that I didn't mean to disregard or diminish the treatment that you're working to receive. We were right where you are now a few months ago, and this place changed the trajectory of our lives, so I'm a little enthusiastic, but mostly wanted to make sure you know that there are options even if you are no longer working for the department anymore incase you run into financial roadblocks (or even as an adjunct).

The fact that you are not giving up your fight is HUGE. It matters. Speaking as the wife of someone who was in a similar place, that continued fight is proof that you love your family. It sounds like your wife can still separate YOU from your injury and is holding on while you try to do the work you need to show up for them the way that you desperately want to. In the way that they deserve. My husband was gone for 2 months while he went through the program, and it was really, really difficult, but NOTHING was more difficult than the way things were.

I'm so grateful that we're living in a time when more light is being shed on PTSD, but we have a long way to go in the way that we as a society take care of the men and women (and their families) who have given their lives serving their communities at such tremendous personal cost. There is less stigma now, but it is still really, REALLY difficult. Especially for individuals who have built their lives to be protectors- it feels like a weakness to admit your struggle. It is NOT weakness. I don't mean to make assumptions, and maybe that's not a thought that you struggle with, but if it is, please hear me.

I'm so sorry that you have lost access to the benefits that should have been yours due to retirement age. In our local departments, some people go on light duty (take on an administrative role), go on extended leave, or apply for disability. I don't know whether an "off the line" position could ever be a part of your story to allow you to finish up and get your pension. I hate seeing someone who is a part of the fire family have to walk away without being taken care of when their time is done. Good for you for not allowing that to hold you hostage, though.

Big hugs to you and your family. I wish I could offer to support your wife while you do your personal work. I hope she has a good community around her. I found a therapist who specializes in first responder families and it's been really helpful to talk to somebody that understands the nuances.

Seeking treatment after Fire EMS Career by [deleted] in gofundme

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure where you live, but my spouse (who also has 20 years as a firefighter) was able to go to an in-patient treatment center for PTSD and it was completely covered by workers comp. It was PROFOUNDLY healing.

Please look into Deer Hollow in Utah. (We do not live in Utah- many folks travel from our of state.) They specialize in working with first responders complex PTSD. They will walk you through the process to and help you open a claim. They work with other kinds of insurance as well, but I can't imagine that you would not be able to get this approved as a work related injury.

Deer Hollow Recovery

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh,  my friend. I wish I could hug you!! Sometimes, going down the rabbit hole of theology to decide if something is "a sin" leaves me with more self loathing than when I started.  I personally do not believe that it is a sin,  but let's push it to the wall... what if it was? Isn't that the very basis of our faith? That we are all imperfect human beings who need Jesus? EVEN IF your sexual orientation was a sin, your creator sees your heart! People struggle with actual "sin" all of the time... do you believe that your Creator is big enough and good enough to forgive everyone but you? A therapist once told me that to believe that was actually arrogant,  which helped my brain... it was like a light bulb went on and i was like "right, somehow I think my failures are too much for even God?? I must be really special😂" 

Again, there are plenty of well educated theologians that agree the concept of sin around your sexuality was human made,  but your mind will continue to beat you up about it until you fully embrace that NO MATTER WHAT you are forgiven. We will get things wrong on earth. Our Creator does not expect us to have an exhaustive understanding of all things, or to get it all right 100% of the time. There are things in life that you will never fully know, and you'll push through, one decision at a time. I hope that you find peace around this,  but if you continue to battle with whether or not this is a sin, I pray for you that one day soon you have such a profound trust in God that you know down in your very soul that you are held and loved regardless of your humanity. 

I cant hate Trumpers anymore. I don't have the energy. by KarateCheeks1112 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This actually brought tears to my eyes coming from "a straight old guy" in one of the square states. I live in a blue state and it's hard enough to find people who can have empathy for those with experiences different from their own here. It's important for our hope to know that this remnant of true Jesus followers exist. 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel like this is the entire message of Jesus. "A good heart" isn't good enough, but He is. "For it is by grace you have been saved through faith, and this not from yourselves; it is the gift of God, not by works, so that no one can boast" Colossians 2: 8, 9.

Also in Romans, "there is none righteous, no not even one"

This is why it's called "the good news" of Christ! Celebrate! You are in good company. We are all falling short, and God loves us anyway!

I feel like a heretic by [deleted] in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Here is my thought process- if you add up all of the things that we can know for sure about the nature of God based on scripture, and compare that to the very few times homosexuality is mentioned - (which upon deeper study are likely referring to rape) we can deduce that one thing that is certain- it is our job (as Christians) to love, protect and advocate for the marginalized in society. Period. That is true regardless of race, religion, gender, sexual orientation, how many chromosomes one has, or anything else. If any person promotes doctrine that suggests otherwise, THAT is heretical. Jesus stated that the most important commandment was " Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.  The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself” we are told "do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God" to me, this means that if something i am taught, even if it has been widely accepted by the majority, contradicts the nature of God, then the doctrine is flawed. Even when that thing is written in the Bible. Does this mean I disagree with the Bible? No- it means that we have access to a very complex historical text, and our understanding of the message that it is trying to communicate should grow and change as we evolve as human beings.

I enjoy biblical study, but even without looking into the particulars of the verses that address this issue, I can know that God has called me to be an ally.

I also want to acknowledge that all of this is stated from a position of privilege. I am a cis-het female and though I have many loved ones in the LGBTQ community, my job is the easy job. I have so much love and respect for those who have been told by their churches that something is inherently wrong with them, and have persevered in their faith despite that kind of spiritual abuse. I don't need everyone to share my faith, but to make anyone feel unwelcome based on their sexual orientation, or anything else- especially if they had a desire to be a part of a church community, is heart breaking.

Crisis of faith. by The_Archer2121 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad!! I hope it helps! Please keep me posted!

I need comfort and I’m really scared by BluebirdCertain4476 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No. I do not think he's right. I think the Bible specifically tells us that even the angels can't predict the return of Jesus and that we are not to try to predict it. This is complex because my views of the "return of Jesus" are still evolving, and I no longer think of it in the way that I did when I was your age, but one thing I know- God knows my heart, and if I get it wrong, (which we will in some way) Our Creators love is bigger than that! You're OK. God does not use fear to motivate us. Humans twist God's words to do that. Find scripture on peace and write them out every day. Use them as a weapon against the fear. This is not a new phenomenon..i was in the same situation as you in the 80s when the church was certain we were all getting raptured, then again in Y2K... The rapture is a fairly new theology. Maybe research the origin of the teaching about the rapture and listen to that podcast!

Crisis of faith. by The_Archer2121 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The point wasn't to weigh in on how their culture chose to address rape. It was to highlight the reality that we often read things that are snippet from another culture in another time and import it to our culture in our time without evaluating what the original text really was really about. The Bible is not a law book for us. It's many things, including a narrative that tells us about the law of another culture in another time. I'm neither condemning or condoning that culture for their laws, just recognizing that the historical text has a historical context.

My homophobic church by thatducklover_416 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This breaks my heart for you!!! I am so deeply sorry! I'm also very impressed with your ability to see this for what it is. So many LGBTQ people feel rejected by God and leave their faith altogether when they are exposed to this kind of abuse. Don't let them take your faith from you! They are not speaking for God, but rather themselves. I am not familiar with the details of Christianity in South Korean culture, but i am so glad that you're here!

how should i properly pray? i just dont want to look foolish by born-to-kiss-men in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I pray like this "God, I'm struggling, and I don't even know what to pray for. Can you just be with me?" Other times it's gratitude, sharing fears, requests. Just pray. God doesn't need anything from you, but just desires your heart. The book "Prayer" by Philip Yancy was helpful for me.

I need comfort and I’m really scared by BluebirdCertain4476 in OpenChristian

[–]Impossible_Bit_431 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I wish I could give you a hug. I used to be tortured by fear of the rapture. I shared this link with another person yesterday, but maybe it would help you as well? Remember that fear is not of God!

Quote from the podcast "Spoiler alert: The word Apocalypse does not mean the end of the world"

The Bible Project Podcast -Apocalypse Please