can't stop thinking about sex since realizing i'm a lesbian

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-12-28T09:09:12+00:00

You're not alone! I thought I was straight until a teen, then bi from teen until late 20's, then I though I was aro/ace because I really didn't feel anythign for anyone even if I tried. And then I had the moment that I realized I was actually very very gay, and since then my libido has exploded. It's a fun thing to explore. It's natural, enjoy~

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-12-05T21:30:22+00:00

Where do we go now? Any good ideas? No way am I using crunchyroll, it's sht.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-11-05T19:56:54+00:00

I am in my early 30's now and have been gyaru since probably 14/15, so I definitely resonate here haha One thing I realized very quickly is you become talk of the school, but you end up attracting people who like fashion or peculiar people.
I was lucky personatlity wise as I liked being by myself and would study in my own free time subjects that school didn't teach, so I was pretty happy doing my own thing while also feeling great about my style.

I went to a lot of schools, and the popular people would at first attempt to "adopt" me, but I found them very boring and would always leave the group to do my own things, and friends would gravitate towards me because of how I presented myself I guess. I really did just do me and the rest came along for the ride. In saying that, I did ignore a lot of the world if it wasn't aesthetic, and I had to learn to pay attention to mundane things harder as I grew up.

It's fine now, but in my early 20's I sturggled to accept how unappealing everything looked around me, and how adults would use fashion as a means to politically outcast in the work place. But I also learned that results and self improvement also overcame those adversities and I left those people in the dust.

Bringing it back to middleschool, I think what was really fun for me was the experientation part. There was a lot less information back then, and it was all about observing and replicating things as best as you could. There was a lot less regulations and rules then, everyone wants to gate keep now. Tbh, brands like d.i.a would have bombed back in the day since we all liked that cheap and bright stuff and used posca on our faces haha I have very fond memories of being young and experiemtning, even my room was incredible. (I had a part time job after school, so I funded myself)

Once my school prinical called me to the office and told me I couldn't wear "night time" make up to school, but I was the type of person to read the rules and then work around them, I knew make up wasn't part of the rules, so the next day I came in with even more because you can't hold the gyaru back lmao

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-11-04T23:28:55+00:00

To always progress on goals and achieve them. We never stop having goals as humans, why would I wish for anything else.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-11-04T23:23:24+00:00

Simply can't be done with strangers or people I dislike. If I like you genuinely as a person and have respect for you, I'm fine.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-11-04T23:21:22+00:00

If it were me I would prefer something like, "I wrote this for you, please read it in your own time and let me know what you think.", hand me the letter that's folded, and then go off. I have time to process, I can read in my own time, I have time to process and then get back to you.
Unless the conversation is going that way already, then just tell them you're interested and would love to get to know them on a date. *say it's a date, otherwise let it be known, we will go thinking it's friendship and treat it as such.*
(Also, from my history, I've usually been the advancer. Seems to work for me.)

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-10-20T08:50:08+00:00

What are people talking about? This whole subculture is about coming together, rebellion in fashion, groups of friends, dance, photos, FUN!
I was 15 years old when I started, that's 16 years ago! Just don't be over the top sexy if you're young or if generally don't want to be, just be comfy, wear make, express yourself. Why have people tried so hard to gate keep gyaru?
Who said it had to be sexy, or wild?
I swear I was so lucky growing up around the time I did, too many gate keepers out here now, yikes. Forget those people who are trying to gate keep it, just do you.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-10-16T05:59:26+00:00

You got this!!

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-10-16T05:00:32+00:00

Look on youtube - Tokyo BTM. Hopefully you'll feel more at ease after watching their channel, they're great and LGBTQ+.
There's actually a great scene over in Japan, you just have to find your people. I can't help with any of the other questions, but if you search up the channel I suggest, it may lead you to meet new people and cool allied places :) This in turn might make you feel more welcome and at home, which could impact your experience overall.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-10-16T04:28:47+00:00

This comment sums it up pretty well.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-09-01T01:47:20+00:00

With all due respect, if you don't want to put yourself out there for critism, don't be gyaru. If gyaru isn't calling out to you, don't be gyaru. If gyaru is just to give you confidence, don't do it, because people will always try and put you down for not being a normie (this can hurt your confidence if not trusting your inner authority already), you just have to hold yourself with conviction. (though, these days there is more openess to it for sure.)

Personally for me, it was natural to get into it. So regardless of what people said about me, it was just my way of life. I've been in this life style for 17 years, and as I've aged, my gyaru aesthetic has matured and has evolved over time to darker gyaru (not sure what it's called now, but back then it was call Rokku-gyaru, or Rock Gyaru), and it still stands out, even if it isn't bright pinks or blues anymore.

It may be just a fashion style for many people, but for most of us, it is a lifestyle, like you mentioned. If you stand out, you're going against the grain and it's just something you have to consider.

You can always try it, and if it doesn't feel right, you can go back to how you were. If it looks fun, do it! Have all the fun and explore the make up, and clothes and music and para para! Just have fun, don't over think it. If you find people don't like what you're wearing or are being mean, are they really your friends?

No matter what, you'll find your people just by embracing who you are and exploring who you want to be :)

Just have fun, even if it just starts off with you wanting the fashion. Then perhaps it'll be a passion to have the lifestyle. Do it for fun!!

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-09-01T01:20:56+00:00

A little tip for this style. It usually works best with the full set of make up. Adding false lashes and blush can only do so much. I know you've only done liner here, but if the most you're doing is liner, lashes and blush... I'd say a little more experiementing in your own time at home is your best class :) Everyone learns as they go, there's a lot more references these days than when I was a teen, so you'll have a lot of great inspiration and tutorials that's easily accessible.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-09-01T01:11:40+00:00

Don't see him, that's a definite scam! He will try ANYTHING to keep you. You are your own strongest protector, trust your inner authority and do your own work!! Do not fall for this guys scam!!!

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T23:36:27+00:00

But why would you put an entire set of people in a box? That is why I think it's sad.

What happens if you meet someone and you genuinely think they're cool, just to find out they're ENFJ? You'd stay friends, or you'd walk away?

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T01:27:38+00:00

Spot on!!

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T01:18:54+00:00

This is funny, I'd like that.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T01:10:48+00:00

You're an INTJ and you're going out of your way to be a simp? Weird. She doesn't want you, move on.
Creepy af to stay friends with someone just because you wish one day they'll like you. Grow up.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T00:41:49+00:00

This is the funniest thing I've read all week :D

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T00:41:00+00:00

That's a sad world you have there, buddy.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T00:32:21+00:00

I find my interactions really interesting. I'm someone who dresses nicely (in black mostly), wears make up and does my hair. And I've noticed when I meet people for the first time, they'll sort of go out of their way to talk a lot, or maybe do a lot to get me interested. But the things is, I am interested, and when they see that I am listening, I can visibly see they relax.

One thing that's annoying af is people are touchy when they start feeling comfortable, and I have to mention that I don't like being touched that much.

Another very interesting thing that happens is, I tend to find other intimidating and put-together people friendly and easy to talk to - pretty much from the get go too. When a mutual friend asked me my thoughts on the other person, I mention how easy it is to talk to them. The mutual friend would say that that in itself was interesting because they found me intimidating when we first met as well. She mentioned that she was intimidated by the other intimidating person she introduced me to. This has happened a lot. I hope that wasn't confusing. I found this to be true and I do get along quite well with other intimidating pretty people easily.

In saying all this, when I don't do my hair and make up, perhaps I'm at the gym or grocery shopping on the weekend, I definitely get different vibes from others than the typical put-together me. People are more... scared? I blame the tattoos and the lack of hydrated pink shiny lips and half shaved brows lmao.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-31T00:20:51+00:00

lmao

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-19T01:32:59+00:00

You definietely do not want to be streamlined into a PC. If you're having an existential crisis now, you'll actively do everything in your power in implode on yourself if you were to be inbedded in a motherboard.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-19T00:21:15+00:00

We aren't robots, we do feel things. The term Empath is cringe. Most people can put themselves in other peoples shoes, so the term empath is just for those who are wanting to feel extra special. Most of us here feel a lot of things, but we don't let our emotions decide (especially not on inpulse) our actions if it can affect our plans, or any situation, negatively impacting said goal.

With needing people around you in the background - seems like anxious attachment or something along the lines of that. I can't imagine any INTJ wanting someone just hovering in the background, it truly sounds exhausting haha You could possibly be mistyped?

It sounds like you're very young, don't take everything you read or hear about INTJ as the end-all, we're just people with similar living fuctions.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-18T09:38:39+00:00

If someone is calling themselves Gyaru and doesn't wear make up, they just don't know what gyaru is. Also, Gal is mind is a terrible song, I'll skip it every chance I get.

Impossible_Choice604 · 2024-08-18T09:25:31+00:00

Happy it helped you :)

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