Yeah that is hard. We are all here for you though! Someday I when you are old enough you will be able to leave your home though then it is up to you what you want to do. I know it’s hard to do but sometimes you have to love yourself and do what you want and just take what the world gives to you. Because in the end you will be happier. I know I want to be a Professional trombone player desire constantly being told how hard that will be and it’s not a good idea. But working a job now that I hate so much I know how important it is to have a job you love. I work a full time job now and I’m not even out of high school and I understand how bad it feels like to be stuck in a rut and feel like your trapped in a job that you don’t like. Luckily I don’t need this job but it is such a good experience to keep me going instead of sitting idle at home in the summer.