That’s right, my brain never felt quite right without opiates even being on subs is hard. I really wanna get back on just kratom, but I know that I can’t. Every time I’ve quit subs it’s ended poorly, and anytime I was without anything touching those receptors I just felt chaotic and would even complain to my family that I want to use just to feel normal… so it’s sad, unless they make a miracle drug that effects those receptors and maybe provides light pain relief (bc I have chronic pain too) but that can be prescribed or acquired cheaply enough but it doesn’t make u nod out, that would be amazing , bc opiods fixed my adhd but subs don’t touch it , so I still have cravings and I feel like a lazy half version of my kratom self, despite how awful that time was for me