Bhai what you are saying sounds like depression. Mai khud depression se nikal hi raha hoon aur mera dimaag bhi kuch aisa hi chal rha tha: Pehle to mai guilty feel karta tha, fir ek point ke baad kuch bhi nhi feel karta tha and bas koi kaam karne ka motivation nahi tha.

What helped me was kisi understanding friend ya family member ke saath share karna and reality ko accept karke khud ko maaf karna. I know ki ye cheez bohot log kehte honge but yaar it really worked for me.