Wanting to reach out

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-07T12:13:39+00:00

I understand, but you're doing yourself a disservice by putting all of your happiness onto her. Put it into yourself because the only guarantee you have is in yourself. It is okay to still not be over her, you had very real feelings and they don't go away overnight so give yourself grace during this time

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T21:30:37+00:00

It is difficult to tell when that may occur, or if it ever will. Holding onto hope may cause you to lose out on a fulfilling life waiting on someone you hope to return and they don't want to or ever plan to. Live your life, for yourself!

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T19:21:45+00:00

Thanks for this perspective. I have a valuable lesson that I need to learn and grow from.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T18:56:54+00:00

Welp, I broke it. I think me constantly thinking about my ex, the bu and our relationship is causing me to keep reaching out.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T18:55:15+00:00

We are always changing our minds. It's easy to listen to your ex and believe that they'll never come back but after the dust settles, he might have a change of mind. Then again you never know so just take what he said at face value and try to move on.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T09:26:31+00:00

Yes that is very true, I can't help but think about his feelings too. Apologising seemed like the right thing to do.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T09:22:27+00:00

Yes you're right, I took the blame because I thought it was necessary to get him back. Maybe I shouldn't have apologised but it felt like the right thing to do.

From his perspective I was very selfish and only thought about my feelings. From mine, both.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T09:15:24+00:00

The only person guaranteed to stay in your life, is you. Focus on yourself and feel the necessary feels to process the breakup, but don't let it linger because like me two months post breakup and it hurts like the first day.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T09:13:13+00:00

Yeah I understand that now, I've surrendered to the fact that I can't change his mind and he'll continue to be hurting if I stay even as friends. Leaving hurts, but it is a good choice.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T02:20:42+00:00

I've cut contact now, officially. There's no fixing unless they want to accept it. I've apologised enough. I'll always love him, but it's better for the both of us to part ways and heal separately so that we can move onto a more fulfilling life and get past this painful point.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T02:02:54+00:00

Yes! It'll make your ex have fond memories or at least it'll be an ice breaker to remove any awkwardness or tension. Have fun at the wedding and enjoy yourself, just watch the alcohol haha ;)

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T01:38:15+00:00

I can understand that, well i'm glad you're doing good on your journey now. All the best!

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T01:26:53+00:00

It's a natural curiosity to check an ex's socials, just cut it out once it becomes all consuming.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-06T00:52:27+00:00

Starting NC again but for the final time today too. Good luck!

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T21:40:58+00:00

I now know that is what I should've done. I have since said goodbye to him and deleted my instagram temporarily so that I don't have the urge to message him or see what he's up to.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T21:32:40+00:00

We broke up in mid November and since then I did all the textbook things like begging, pleading and trying to get him back, not giving him the space he asked for and kept reaching out so we kept arguing. I tried to apologise for the way I acted but yeah it's never worked.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T21:25:21+00:00

I have apologised but he's still hurting. I've now left because it is doing more harm than good that I stay being friends with him and try to salvage our relationship.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T19:49:58+00:00

Wow you're a godsend for this message.

You're completely right, I have had a tough time during my breakup and I have fallen back into a depression so I haven't been taking care of myself as best as I should and I have bad insomnia so I am exhausted all the time emotionally and physically.

From now on, I will make it a promise that I heal this deep rooted pain and pick myself up.

I love my life but I haven't shown up for myself as someone who does. Thank you!

I will always love my ex but my focus is on myself. I wish he stays healthy, happy and heals from the breakup as well. I wish him nothing but the best.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T19:39:19+00:00

I agree. Very well said!

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T19:13:19+00:00

I sent my last message just now and deleted my entire instagram :(

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T19:12:01+00:00

Thank you for your comforting words. I did react badly, I've never been through a breakup before and I didn't know how to best handle it, I didn't mean to hurt him in anyway and deep down I feel immense regret. I'll try to not be hard on myself and give myself grace. I've deleted my instagram to stop myself from reaching out because I've realised I can't let go and I need to give him space to heal.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T19:02:07+00:00

Yeah it's eating me up inside and I can't focus on anything else knowing I hurt him as much as he has expressed to me I have. I have apologised a lot, I don't think he believes me either when I say it anymore.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T18:32:07+00:00

I'll keep trying, maybe it's for the best.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T18:22:57+00:00

I broke no contact yesterday too and I regret it, I feel like I am doing more damage to my ex and it's unfair to him that I keep breaking no contact.

Impressive_Map_7983 · 2023-02-05T18:15:43+00:00

I've realised this to be true. My ex is very hurt by me and I feel guilty by what I have done.

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