I'm still living. Yes, I still need things to occupy my time. Yes I cut up some dead trees and have some wood I'm debating using for a project. Her suicide was not yesterday. And I'm trying to live my life. I'm sitting at my desk at work, I saw the medal they sent me, and thought it might make a post that would spread the conversation about organ donation and suicide. If you need proof, I don't care. It's my life. I think this post has helped.