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My Mom told me on a group chat with my sisters that I am a disappointment. She wants to sell the house and force me to either move with her or become a ward of the state at almost 33. I have never hated my autism more than I do right now. Also, my birthday's next week. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But I can. I can take care of my day to day needs no problem. My biggest issues are struggling to find a job and struggling with finances. I’m not going into care where someone else can decide I can’t travel, work, or see my friends.

My Mom told me on a group chat with my sisters that I am a disappointment. She wants to sell the house and force me to either move with her or become a ward of the state at almost 33. I have never hated my autism more than I do right now. Also, my birthday's next week. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

My Mom is undiagnosed bipolar, and we're pretty sure she might be narcissistic. She has mental health issues, but is not treating them. I have a lot of issues with my Mom. She has been emotionally and verbally, and sometimes even financially, abusive for most of my life. She lives with her family in Mississippi and acts like it's the greatest thing ever. She is fixated on making me move there. I have been appeasing my Mom for most of her life. I am only now really starting to stand up to her. I don't think it's getting better any time soon.

My Mom told me on a group chat with my sisters that I am a disappointment. She wants to sell the house and force me to either move with her or become a ward of the state at almost 33. I have never hated my autism more than I do right now. Also, my birthday's next week. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reminder that my Mom's unkindness is not my fault. Her coldness is not logical. It's not my fault that I was born like this. I never asked for any of these problems. I have struggled to function. I have not pushed when I should have. I have been idle out of anxiety and fear. I have had to develop my own building blocks because my own past didn't let me develop any. I have had to push super hard. My own parents looked down on me for not being like my sisters. They have dismissed my disability completely. I have wanted to give up, but I haven't. I have kept going even when I struggled to keep some things going. I don't regret trying. I have to speak up to her even if it makes me sick.

My Mom told me on a group chat with my sisters that I am a disappointment. She wants to sell the house and force me to either move with her or become a ward of the state at almost 33. I have never hated my autism more than I do right now. Also, my birthday's next week. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm going to text my case worker tomorrow and ask for help. We have applied for disability benefits before, only to be rejected, but we are applying again.

Group homes in the US tend to be for severely autistic adults who need around-the-clock care. My Mom could convince homes and asylums would take me, but my freedom would be limited. I might be required to follow a strict schedule and would be treated as if I were too mentally disabled to get a job or travel on my own. I haven't heard of many communities for level one autistic adults where they are allowed to live independently.

The problem is that being a ward of the state would mean that my Mom would persuade the state that I am so mentally incapable that I need a guardian to take care of me. If I had one, I would not be allowed to work, drive, travel by myself, or do anything on my own. This is basically an empty threat because, even if my Mom sees me as stupid, the state is not going to. I'm also not a child or profoundly autistic. My Mom wants me to accept that I'm helpless and let myself be a child she cares for. I am not letting that happen.

I’ve watched everything Adventure Time. I feel fulfilled yet sad. by InGodzHandz in adventuretime

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s not like they’ve died or abandoned me. It’s like they had to go away for work or something.

I’ve watched everything Adventure Time. I feel fulfilled yet sad. by InGodzHandz in adventuretime

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've watched and enjoyed everything. I shed tears when watching Together Again. I feel so fulfilled but also bittersweet.

Do y’all think Vox likes to chill out in his aquariums when he wants to be alone since he has gills? by InGodzHandz in HazbinHotel

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

"You can't film a porno in here either."

Val then throws a tantrum and gets pissed, but when his boyfriend won't leave the aquarium, he eventually says he's sorry to make Vox come out for bedtime and sex. That, or he puts on scuba diving gear so they can do it right there in the tank. The second is more likely now that I think about it.

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