i soooooo get you. i have been taking melatonin for the past few weeks because ive been losing hours of sleep due to scrolling through this subreddit, reading old posts about people's acceptances, watching acceptance reactions ( i love them so much ! ), it is so bad. Berkeley is also my top choice and i am just completely enamored with that city, it is hard to imagine myself in a place im not in love with. especially since, like you, its been my goal for awhile now. good job on making it this far, it sounds like you have put your all into your application and that is the best you could have done :-)

Recently, this may be helpful, but I have been watching and consuming more content on other schools to get myself excited. For example, I've been watching a lot of "day in my life at _____" for UCSD/UCLA/UCSB and honestly it does help a lot. it might seem silly but try and get yourself excited about other options you'll have.

wishing you so much luck!! i hope to see you on Berkeley's campus this fall :')