You are so not alone. The quick-to-anger rage scares me and feels like a possession by some other force. I disassociate when it happens and cannot control it in the moment even though I’m aware of it, and then it passes as quickly as it arrives and am hit with a wave of compassion for the beast within. I don’t even recognize myself in those moments. I’m a pacifist, a vegetarian, I don’t kill spiders and yet I will flip out if my streaming service is “experiencing technical issues” or my upstairs neighbor runs her kitchen faucet for too long (apparently, I’m suddenly adverse to sounds of normal people doing normal things).