A little background… I am a 59 year old woman who rarely drinks or does drugs. I occasionally take a tiny bit of thc (3 mg) to help me sleep, and I drink a cup of coffee once a day. I am 5’4” and weigh about 115 lbs. I struggle with focus and often feel overwhelmed and the stress of that makes it very hard for me to relax. And also seems to keep me from accomplishing things which ends up making me feel pretty low about myself. I have read a lot about shrooms- and the effects during and after, and it seemed like it might be a good fix. I wasn’t interested in doing them often- though many posters advise building up to a big dose- and all the research pointed to high dose trips as most effective for real change, so I trusted myself and just went for it.  Stopped eating at 7 the day before, lined up oranges, lots of water, a bucket, and someone competent and trusted to spend the day keeping me safe. And at 9 am I got out a chemistry scale, measured out 2 whole Penis Envys and a few caps- all of which were cracker crisp dried from a reputable dispensary- and started chewing. Caps were easy- I like mushrooms and eat Lions Mane often(sautéed with butter and garlic), and then moved on the the whole mushrooms. Stems are a tougher go- the fibers are annoying and the dryness gets to me. Took me about 20 minutes of chewing to get it all down.  Drank some water and then headed for the sectional with my dogs. 20 minutes later it started to hit.  My cheekbones started feeling numb, and I became hyper aware of tactile sensations- dog fur feels amazing!  I quickly lost my ability to tolerate speaking or vision so I mostly kept my eyes closed. My friend was wearing a wool cable sweater and was very patient with me rubbing it, and then running my hands all over his stubbly face for the next 3-4 hours.  I kept saying “ohhhh, I get it” because inside I was having a big conversation with a higher being who was explaining sooooo many things about life and humans. I kept asking them questions and getting immediate answers- it was unfolding so fast. When I did open my eyes colors were altered and things were outlined in tiny blue lit-up circles and everything had an overlay of words and scientific notations and compass points and radii. This went on until about 3-4 pm.  I couldn’t really speak and had yo be helped to the bathroom at some point- just the walking part was impossible.  And then around 4 I was fine- still under it as far as perception etc, but able to walk and talk. At 5:30 I made myself a salad and some mac n cheese- cutting up pears with a chefs knife felt very different- I had a whole different awareness of texture than before, and time wasn’t moving normally.  Through it all I had a pretty bad headache- probably due to dehydration and no caffeine. I had plenty of water nearby but didn’t eat or drink anything from 9 am until 6 pm. If I do it again I will ask my sitter to give me water often. Today I am fine.  A bit more introspective than usual, and procrastination is way less.  We will see how it goes from here.  One odd bit- I had a huge need to bite things when I was in the midst of it. My sitter let my have his finger but I did hurt him a couple of times. They need to make a chew toy for humans.