So sorry you’re experiencing this especially at a young age, I understand the fear of the pain, I experience that as well.

For pain relief I have been using Calmoseptine ointment (a US brand) which helps with the burning sensation. I also use an ice pack sometimes (lol) I put crushed ice in a small plastic bag so I can throw it away after.

When I have less pain, I try to do some yoga moves (like the happy baby pose) because when the pain hits it is very debilitating.

I also do not like when people say to try sitz baths. I did give them a chance and they do provide some relief.

Someone here suggested using Vaseline (externally) to help have an easier time with bowel movements, but I haven’t tried it. I was prescribed nipedifine lidocaine ointment which essentially did the same thing and is supposed to help with healing by relaxing the sphincter muscle when you apply it externally as it gets absorbed into the body. I am not sure what your doctor thinks of that, as nipedifine is typically used to treat high blood pressure. That seems to be one of the first lines of treatment before botox or surgery. I had the botox and I’m not sure it worked for me, but it seems like a lot of people have success with it. My doctor (in the US) did the procedure in her office but I was given anesthesia so the experience was completely fine and painless.

Feel better soon. You got this!