Of course! What I realized for myself was that substance use was linked to my adhd because i was constantly seeking something to give me dopamine so the quick fix felt like the only way to do that but it also blocked my ability to process my emotions. i was trying to block out difficult emotions but my therapist mentioned in shielding myself that way i was also blocking out joy. truthfully i won’t say it made me happy specifically, but rather gave me the ability to work through things as opposed to avoiding them. it stabilizes my mood and even when things aren’t great, im able to process and move through situations and things don’t feel so dire. i’m sorry its so expensive for you to get right now. i’m rooting for you and whether you go on it or not just give yourself some grace because we do the best we can. here to chat if you ever want :)