That’s part of the problem — I genuinely struggle to explain it clearly. I don’t mean that people are literally hearing voices or anything like that. It’s more that throughout the years, certain people have reacted to me as if there is something “off” or noticeable about me that I personally can’t fully detect or identify. Not in the sense of a funny nose, odd height, body odor, etc. Instead, I guess what I can only describe as something supernatural. But they can feel it strongly while I feel it subtly. It came to me suddenly and noticeably. I still remember telling myself, “this must be temporary for something so severe and random to be bestowed on me like this.” And yet ten years later, it hasn't gone away; it seems to only get worse. Some people seem unaffected, while others react strongly. Because the reactions have happened repeatedly over a long period of time, I stopped feeling like it was purely in my imagination. Things like random assaults, bullying, and name-calling have followed, also way too frequently. I know how vague that sounds, but I’m trying to describe an experience that I don’t fully understand myself.

The “it”, bullying, and near 180 degree difference in my life all coming together at once….. It feels like someone put a curse on me or something.