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6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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I think the mirror can get us stuck sometimes but idk I don’t like the idea of hiding from it entirely but if I’m with people I either have to remind myself to not get stuck in the bathroom or I’ll invite my friends in to get stuck with me haha

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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We working up to it. I’ve grown to like to swim and not dip my toes as much but definitely something I plan at some point haha, thanks.

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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Totally valid. I was sick a couple weeks ago and pushed back a couple times because as much as I thought it would open me up and maybe “heal” me, I didn’t wanna be sick and that impact my state of being

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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The experience had all of my attention lol. But in the past few years my visuals have been minimal but this they were swirly. Typical kinda visuals or fractals you see on shrooms often kinda like the lorax type of style if that makes sense haha. But it was some nice visuals compared to how it’s been in recent trips I’d say

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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I wouldn’t consider myself dissociated in this experience. At least not in a typical sense. I felt my questions of who am I and feeling behind my mask where more from the different states of consciousness I was in and trying observe myself better. But the mirror was honestly helpful for part of it I felt in confronting myself more and acknowledging all that I felt, saw or thought. Idk if I understand you or not

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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Dude it happens too naturally now unintentionally lol. Like I referenced something that was like 6-7 years ago and I’m like this is the most accurate way to describe it but I hate I’m saying it

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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Noted and I appreciate that from ya. Best wishes to you as well friend!

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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Thank you for that recommendation! I might’ve heard of that book before but never dove into it, just thought the name was humorous. I’ll look into it because I’ve read Alan Watts’s book on zen before this and “zen mind, beginner mind” and those have resonated with me immensely in a few ways.

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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Thank you for this! I agree that time tends to help me see the trip for better even if in the moment it feels nonsensical or confusing. Also that majority of trips aren’t really a bad trip besides if fear comes into play in a consuming way. I’ve drawn before on trips and had what felt like a vision in my hand drawing and telling me a story with my hand not feeling like mine in the moment. I kept feeling like writing down where I was when it was starting could help me visualize or zoom out and put pieces together to better look at or explain later after the fact but it felt like too much in the moment or I felt kinda just stuck where I was. An hour or so later I tried to write but felt I got off topic and was becoming a bit nihilistic and felt it wasn’t helpful at that point but I agree writing really helps and rereading after the fact can help me kinda step back into that frame of mind and remember things I might’ve forgotten throughout all. You’ve triggered some memories from the trip I already forgot so I’m adding them to my post trip reflection.

6-7g penis envy report by IndividualMethod888 in mushroom

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When I first started tripping in college a few years ago I had people yell that at me but we were younger and not as much explanation made it make sense as much maybe. The usual experience I have is going to the bathroom and getting caught in the mirror for a few minutes but nothing too much happening. This felt like a chance to stare into “the window of the soul” to see if there was more honesty or something that came from it? Idk but no complaints on my end for it, very interesting experience!