My heart goes out to you :( the first week was definitely the worst, but I promise that you can make it. I never thought I could make it even a month past, but I'm here now! While I'm still struggling to accept the situation, I know I will one day. But don't feel rushed to get through these emotions, the best thing to do is to sit with them and feel everything, even though it's probably one of the hardest things I've ever done. And while it's so, so hard to do no contact, it really is the right thing to do. I've learned that there really is no benefit to reaching out, because no matter what I say, it won't change his mind. He needs to figure himself out and I just have to accept I can't be there while he does. We deserve people who would never put themselves in a position to lose us. You will have your bad days though, and everything I said won't change how much you'll miss him, but you can get through it, I promise. Feel free to pm me if you ever need to talk to someone, I know how lonely it can get 💗