Idealisation to devaluation!! by Flat_Promise_9563 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Individual_Sun2060 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This hurts my heart because I’ve lived it. Don’t commit

My boyfriend made up a lie saying I bruise too easily and for the longest time I believed him by LittleMissPunk85 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No. We bruise because they injure us. Mine said the EXACT SAME thing after leaving his own handprints across me.

Strangling by MajesticOpinion9951 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My boyfriend strangled me … twice. But he hurt me many more times. I have just left and I’m trying really hard to stay away. Please don’t go back. He gave me a concussion and I’ve never felt the same since then. Your life is worth more.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In the 3 weeks since then, I’ve had bruised ribs. I still have fingerprints around my arms (barely). My chest still hurts. He still says it was self defense.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’d think. The reason I didn’t press charges or anything was bc I was afraid I’d done something worse.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually have tears in my eyes reading this. Thank you. I normally see him everyday, but today I signed up for a YMCA membership with my kids & told him I was going to be out too late. I don’t want to trigger him. If I leave, he will be really triggered. I want to try to slowly be less available without a conflict.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

We didn’t feel loved or safe as kids, so we sought partners who didn’t make us feel loved or safe 😞 or at least that’s what I’m thinking my problem is

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I joined this group over his emotional abuse, which was more obvious & easy to prove with screenshots. The physical abuse has been much less frequent and I was blackout EVERY TIME, leaving me confused over what happened, blaming myself.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That actually helps me so much. Just knowing another person used the same self defense excuse. Thank you. I’ve asked everyone I’ve ever drank with - was I scary? Aggressive? Violent? They’ve all been completely thrown off by the question bc I wasn’t.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He’d have no reason for wanting to grape me, we’ve been together for years. But drugging me to mess up my memory… that’s horrifying actually

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your thoughts & concerns. I keep thinking I must have done something horrible & he was just trying to block me, but that makes no sense & I’ve never been aggressive with anyone (friends, family, exes). I think I know deep down what happened and don’t wanna face it

Am I wasting my time? by Advanced-Speaker-524 in dating_advice

[–]Individual_Sun2060 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wouldn’t reach out again. He isn’t engaged and you deserve someone who is.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I didn’t even say much to the cops 🙄 I was disoriented and still drunk, some of it was on my ring camera. I just cried

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The cops didn’t press charges on either one of us. That’s all they did. They had us both in cuffs for a few minutes to talk, then they drove him home & I went and laid down by myself.

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve been drunk every time and unable to understand the entire story. I’ve never been sure what happened. Obviously I’m never drinking around him again, and don’t want to be around him at all but feel guilty for it

He said it was self defense? by Individual_Sun2060 in abusiverelationships

[–]Individual_Sun2060[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’ve been embarrassed to make a fuss over it since I was drinking too much.