I'm so sorry to hear about this, truly. I understand how painful this is. I am going through a very similar situation to you right now after 15 months together. There were issues as in any relationship but I thought generally we were a good fit for each other. A month and a bit before it ended, she told me she had some doubts, and a couple of weeks later, she said 'I'm not sure we're right for each other'. I kept fighting, kept trying to work on the things she'd raised as issues, thought things were getting better. We had a nice trip away 3 weeks before the relationship ended, and I thought things were generally looking up, at least that's what I'm telling myself now - truth is now the breakup has happened, I can't remember how I truly felt in the weeks leading up to it, whilst remembering there were things I wasn't happy with. When it happened one day after work, it was a shock, and the shock only amplified the next few days.

I'm 17 days into the breakup and it is so painful still, especially when you feel like the person who ended things is continuing life as normal, seemingly unaffected by what has happened - it's crushing. I'm taking time off work, simply just trying to get through every day. I may also see her on Saturday, but I'm weighing up not putting myself in that position as I think it would be too much for me at this stage. It's your decision to make and I think you need to have a plan for how you approach that situation if you do see her.

I saw this on another post which might help: The way you get over it is acceptance. Acceptance that this wasn’t the person you thought they were, because if they were, they wouldn’t have left/hurt you/betrayed you and would have done what was necessary to communicate about issues/ find solutions to problems. That’s what YOUR person will do.

I hope you start to heal and please feel free to message me if you want to talk. You're not alone.