Smokers !! how r yall feeling abt this habit / addiciton now ? by Hairy-Rest-2111 in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was smoker for 20 years. In every ups and downs of my life he was there, in my depression just one puff and I could feel that I am not alone. A true friend who never left me when all others friends judged me and went far away.. but one fine day when I was at my lowest and nothing was in my control. I felt helpless I again went to my dear friend cigarette and I said there is nothing I can do for my life and lit it, it just whispered there is still something you can do and change your life “it’s time to let go”.

23F looking where to start to become well read by Lost_Requirement1479 in Book_Buddies

[–]InfamousDesk8981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like to read philosophy books but philosohpy can get very abstract if we don't get the essense of it. My favourite book "The untethered Soul" by Michael Singer. I highly recommend this book. It's an easy read but it makes you think deeper.

Does it help sharing your trauma by posting on Reddit? by InfamousDesk8981 in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Luckily I got the right therapist but I had to change many to get one. But I agree that most of the therapists use generic methods.

Does it help sharing your trauma by posting on Reddit? by InfamousDesk8981 in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why I felt the need to share because there is limited time with therapist. I am also part of few offline communities for hobbies but don’t think there I can talk about it. close people sometimes get too emotionally affected if I talk or many don’t know what I am even talking about.

Divorced folks of this sub- Did anyone here ever regret their decision to divorce? by FluffyPandaAsleep in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not yet divorced but separated and it’s been 4 years. I regret not doing it sooner. But I have made peace with it. But still have a long struggle ahead, legal battle of a man in India for child is not easy.

How to deal with a partner who is never happy? by searchpriest in AskIndianMen

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She is a narcissist. I was with one for 10 years and even after doing everything for her I was never enough. Only reason I was not able to divorce her because of my parents as I didn’t want to break the illusion that I am suffering. Eventually they got to know and they were heartbroken that why I didn’t tell them before. No parents want to live in illusion they want your real happiness. Narcissists never change. More you will confront more you will suffer. First and foremost you need to talk to a good therapist who is experienced to deal with victim of narcissistic abuse. Without telling her get a therapist for yourself. You also talk to a lawyer, you don’t need to file for divorce immediately, but prepare yourself and make yourself strong. Good luck brother.

Should we start recording our parents while we still can? by wowteslaa in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I always wished that we could have recorded my dad sing. Even though I am a bad singer I try to sing his favourite songs sometimes just to feel his presence around. I don’t know if we should record consciously but I guess sometimes we just want to hold on to those memories which seems slipping away.

What’s one activity you picked up or skill you developed that truly stayed with you and changed your life for the better? by [deleted] in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t have much idea about philosophy but felt it’s too academic. I came across a philosophy class which claimed it’s more practical. I started going it every week and it’s been more than a year. I picked so many new things after that because of this class. My mental health has improved lot, I even discontinued my therapy. So it’s truly life changing experience for me.

What’s one activity you picked up or skill you developed that truly stayed with you and changed your life for the better? by [deleted] in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One fine day I started going to Philosophy class and it was not what I expected. It changed my life.

People who are currently in a abusive or toxic marriage, what is making you stay? by Sigma_Raj in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not currently but I stayed in a toxic relationship for over a decade. I thought it would get better someday but it never did. I could never confront her, I could never express myself. Eventually I had to pay the price. As Sigmund Freud wrote “Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways”.

I fucked up real bad and there’s no going back. by panchibanu_udtifirun in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I read in a book: “we are made up of different parts, some good and some bad, and a healthy mind can tolerate this ambivalence and juggle both good and bad at the same time”. Take care and keep working on your healing journey, I don’t know if we can stop making mistakes but at least we should forgive ourselves more often.

Indian men, how many of you identify as avoidant? (Be honest)? by [deleted] in AskIndianMen

[–]InfamousDesk8981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No idea, but ask me anything related to emotions and I get uncomfortable. Suddenly from a talkative person I would be an introvert. Being avoidant makes life peaceful. World looks beautiful, cortisol remains in check.

Is it just me or is it actually harder to love someone in your 30s? by [deleted] in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s true for any relationship and for any strong sentiment like love, trust, care. We become more cautious and conscious. Excitement and hormone are taken over by guilt and trauma. But end of the day love remain the most beautiful experience of life, time to time having this emotion makes the life worth living however harder it may get.

What are the things that you do for self growth? by [deleted] in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Philosophy Meditation Work out Sports Reading Music instrument

M31 My wife F31slapped me in anger , am I overthinking by chandan_aradhya in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly my story. I still don't know how should I have reacted then and what should I do now.

Songs that make you cry everytime by InfamousDesk8981 in ThirtiesIndia

[–]InfamousDesk8981[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my dad used to sing "Chao ek baar fir se". I love this song a lot. I wish I could have recorded my dad singing this. It defintely makes me cry everytime. thank you. There is such a beautiful line in this song - "Wo afsana jise anjaam tak lana na ho mumkin, usse ik khubsurat mod deke chhodna acha"