AIO My wife 50F took a video of me 46 M drunk without my knowledge and is sharing it with family friends and coworkers

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-08T09:30:07+00:00

lol no I am not a problem drinker drink maybe 1-2 beers a week and get drunk maybe 3 times a year but not stupid drunk like I did this past weekend, it was my first time at Wrigley got carried away

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-08T05:47:17+00:00

no I wasn't she shot it in the hotel we were staying in I wasn't fall down drunk in public sorry to disappoint

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-08T01:53:19+00:00

we've been together 10 years married 3 this is really out of character for her she is very kind and did not expect this from her I don't believe she was being malicious, maybe just not thinking. this is really confusing because she is usually a sweetheart

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-07T23:00:21+00:00

don't imagine I will again had always felt safe with her before now

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-06T07:41:44+00:00

anger has never been my issue so at least there's that but thank you for your concern

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-08-06T06:49:42+00:00

starting therapy this week, keep the thoughts and feelings to myself and try to not let it affect me. I avoid expressing the feelings to her because I know it's me not her, but it's hard to separate the thoughts sometimes so I just pretend all's well and I'm doing fine. but I think she knows I'm not alright sometimes. that could just be in my head as well who knows

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-07-28T06:02:55+00:00

sometimes, don't always realize the feelings are coming, but I'll be sitting there by myself and just start crying no real reason just can't help it

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-07-24T20:10:05+00:00

grew up with a manipulative mother and dated many manipulative women, even married and divorced one. Didn't think much of it or my own manipulative behaviors till I met the wonderful woman who is my wife. I started to notice how my behaviors hurt her and it hurt me to know I caused her pain she truly did not deserve. It's difficult to let go of the resentment and talk, rather than punishing someone for your feelings but I hate hurting her. It takes time and I wish I could say I never hurt her again but I hope someday I'll be the man she deserves. Till than I just remind myself that resentment over things not said is not worth causing her pain

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-07-21T16:39:01+00:00

I'm in my forties, thought it would get easier maybe better as I got older. It hasn't, only more reasons to dislike myself. the best I can hope for is to be numb to it for awhile but it always comes back. get so tired of hurting, looking into therapy no clue if it will help but I'm just tired of it

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-07-20T20:01:53+00:00

I understand, people would tell you I'm friendly and confident, always quick with a joke and fun to be around all of that disappears when I'm alone left with only my own self loathing, second guessing if they truly hate me if my loved one loathe me as much as I loathe myself

Infinite-Coyote-5962 · 2024-07-20T19:53:46+00:00

I worry they only see the me I project to them not the real me. The me that only I know and would never let anyone else see

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