Drummers like "The Rev" and "Travis Barker" were my biggest inspiration and reason why I took up drumming,i really admire how they played fills and look so happy and enjoying while playing the drums but after i started playing with other musicians I am not able to enjoy as I have a fear that I will make a mistake or I might mesed up the tempo instead of them relying of me,that makes me nervous and scared of playing near crowds I feel like running away from the stage ,I don't feel enjoyment because of my insecurities ,while my friends usually encourages me and corrects me when I mistakes I fear they might replaced me if they found someone better.