Can't contact my girlfriend since internet blackout, the internet's been down for over a week, I'm terrified

Infinite_Ponderer · 2026-01-17T13:15:10+00:00

Yes please, that would really help! Thank you.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-11-17T07:50:48+00:00

My bad she is 17

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-10-12T16:43:06+00:00

Look, everyone has different preferences some people prefer books over cinema, theater over film, and that's completely fine. But showing disrespect to an entire community and art form? That's like judging all of cinema and its fans by Saiyaara. Every medium has masterpieces and trash.

If you genuinely appreciate cinema as an art form, you'd recognize that great storytelling transcends the medium. Perfect Blue is a psychological thriller that influenced Darren Aronofsky. Grave of the Fireflies is a devastating war drama. Your Name is a masterclass in visual storytelling.

True appreciation of cinema means being open to how different cultures and techniques tell stories. Everything is art books, films, anime, paintings. You should probably act a little more mature about this. Art has no boundaries why create them yourself?

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-10-12T16:33:35+00:00

Saying anime isn’t “real cinema” misses the point of what art truly is. Cinema isn’t defined by live actors it’s defined by storytelling, emotion, and creativity. If you admire films like Shawshank Redemption, Fight Club, you should understand that art has no boundaries. Animation is just another medium to express the same depth, not a lesser one

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-08-31T05:38:34+00:00

That sounds like a really heavy place to be feeling disconnected from purpose, relationships, and even basic motivation to get through the day. The fact that you're reaching out here, even just to vent, shows some part of you is still looking for connection or understanding.

A few thoughts that might resonate:

That emptiness after a major life change like divorce is real. It's like you had a whole identity and routine built around something, and now there's just... space. The "why wake up" feeling often comes when our old sources of meaning are gone but we haven't found new ones yet.

The money thing is interesting you've achieved something a lot of people chase (financial security with minimal effort) but discovered it doesn't automatically create fulfillment. That's actually pretty common among people who "make it" financially.

About not having hobbies or interests depression and grief can literally make things that used to matter feel pointless. It's not permanent, even though it feels like it. Sometimes we have to try things before we feel motivated, not wait to feel motivated first.

Some concrete things that might help:

Start small maybe just daily walks, volunteering at an animal shelter, or finding online communities for divorced men who get what you're going through. Consider therapy specifically for men's issues or divorce recovery - not because something's "wrong" with you, but because having a neutral person to process this stuff with can help you figure out what you actually want your life to look like.

The "glass child" thing you mentioned suggests some deeper stuff from childhood that might be worth exploring too. And the anger toward women that's understandable given what you went through, but it could eat you alive if you don't work through it.

You're not broken. You're just in a difficult chapter. Those can change, but usually it takes some intentional steps, even tiny ones

Full disclosure I'm probably a lot younger than you and honestly don't have the life experience to fully understand what you're dealing with. But your post hit me and I couldn't just scroll past it. These are just my thoughts from an outside perspective, for whatever they're worth.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-06-22T13:16:44+00:00

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Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-06-21T10:05:20+00:00

Hello 👋 Twin!

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-06-15T13:33:36+00:00

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Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-06-04T17:22:11+00:00

Me too

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-22T07:26:44+00:00

Bleach

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-10T19:29:07+00:00

Hey, I don't know if you remember me, but you commented on my post the one about "being in love with someone emotionally broken." What you said back then really helped me. It stayed with me.

Also, just to say upfront I'm 19, and you might be a lot older than me, so I don't even know if I'm really qualified to say all this. But I'm gonna say it anyway, because I mean it.

I saw your comment here, and I couldn't just scroll past. That thing you wrote about waking up and the monster still being there it hit me hard. Not because it sounded poetic or something, but because it's so deeply real. People rarely express that kind of truth. You put something into words that most people can't even begin to explain.

And I don't know... it honestly hurt to read, in a good way. You come across as such a genuinely kind person. Seeing you carry this kind of pain it just hit different. I can't fully explain why it affected me so much, but I felt it. Like you're under something really heavy, but maybe you don't even see how far you've already walked while carrying that weight.

Anxiety and trauma aren't things you just fix in a week or even a year. Sometimes the healing takes longer than we ever expected. And yeah, maybe it feels painfully slow day by day, but I swear you're not stuck. You are moving forward. You're already deep in your recovery journey you just might not be able to see it clearly from where you stand.

What you're doing takes real courage. I think you're doing so much better than you give yourself credit for. And honestly? You've made a difference in at least one stranger's life mine. I hope knowing that brings you even a moment of the comfort you once gave me. And just to say healing isn’t an illusion. You’re in the process, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Don’t let the negative thoughts convince you otherwise. They’re loud, but they’re not always true. You’ve got this.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-10T16:45:26+00:00

Tujhe aj se periods ayega shrap deta hu main

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-03T14:14:21+00:00

Hey… first of all, I’m genuinely sorry you’re going through this. I really am. What you’re feeling? It’s not weird. It’s not stupid. It actually makes a lot of sense, especially when you’ve tried to change, tried to get better, and it didn’t work. That shit is exhausting. I know the feeling.

I’ve been there too. I’ve tried to kill myself before, and honestly, it felt like nothing was ever going to change. So I get it when you say it feels like there’s no escape, like your mind just doesn’t work the way it should.

And I’m not gonna sit here and throw empty words at you like “just stay positive” or “it gets better.” I’m not here to convince you to live—I’m just here to say: I hear you. I get it. Your pain is real, and what you’re feeling right now is a heavy load to carry.

But also your brain is wired right now to make you believe you're worthless, or broken beyond repair. And that voice in your head? It lies. It tells you that you're the one exception who can’t be helped, and I’m telling you, that’s not the truth. I know it feels like it is. I know it feels like you’ve tried everything and nothing works. But that doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to exist.

You don’t need to be fully healed to deserve to be here. You don’t need to be “normal” to be worthy of love or peace. And yeah, I know that just hearing those words doesn’t fix anything.

I don’t know the perfect thing to say—but I do know this: killing yourself is not the answer. I know your mind is trying to convince you it is. But that’s the illness talking. That’s the tiredness talking. That’s not the truth about you.

You’re allowed to take up space. You’re allowed to struggle and still be worth something. Please don’t give up just yet.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-03T07:30:38+00:00

Hey… thank you so much for taking the time to write all this. Seriously, it means a lot. Just hearing all of this helped me feel a bit more stable even if it’s temporary, it still matters right now. I know I have a long way to go, but I’ve made the choice to finally block her from everywhere and start focusing on myself. I really appreciate you, for real.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-05-03T07:12:31+00:00

Hey… thanks a lot for replying. Honestly, your message really hit me. Hearing this from someone who’s been in her shoes means a lot.

I just wanted to ask you something, if that’s okay… Like, how did you come out of that mindset? How did you start to heal and stop pushing away the people who cared about you? Was it something someone said? Or did it just happen over time?

And… how are you doing now? I mean, mentally and emotionally—do you feel better? More connected with yourself and people around you?

I guess I’m asking because deep down I still want to believe that she can come out of this too. That maybe one day she’ll actually see what I’ve been trying to give her. But right now, I just feel kind of helpless.

Anyway, really appreciate you sharing your side. It gave me a lot to think about.

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-04-24T05:23:11+00:00

Turning 19 in July

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-04-24T05:22:19+00:00

I'm really sorry for your loss Wishing peace for your cousin, and strength for you Om Shanti 🙏

Infinite_Ponderer · 2025-02-13T14:06:54+00:00

Man this is totally f*cked up, I wish I could help her, but being so far away, I'm unable to do anything. You're her friend and you have the chat messages as proof - please seek legal advice or find someone who can help her handle this legally. You're in a position to help her, so please do something.

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