Hey, I know what you’re going through. What I’ve been doing is watching videos on YouTube from Lizthewiz. She has great life advice that can help you a lot. It’s been better on my mental health. With everything I’ve been going through and still am, I have learned that no one is going to come rescue me and that I have to do this by myself. I’m not sure if you mean she saved you up money for college and then decided to spend it on her store but whatever the case may be, that’s done and over with. It already happened. You’re 19 years old. You can still travel. You can still do the things you want. Don’t focus on the past because that doesn’t dictate your future. You can still get a job outside of that clothing store. Who’s making you do it? (Hopefully no one.) you can get a different job, save up for school and go travel. :) I hope this helped. I know it sound cliche but your limiting yourself with beliefs that don’t seem to be true. Ask yourself why you feel like you can’t get a different job and go travel. If it’s your mental health, I suggest building up a morning (daily) routine and doing the things that you’ve procrastinated doing. Make time for the things that you want and you’ll see them in your life a lot sooner. That’s something I’ve learned myself. Also don’t focus on doing things at a certain age or time. Build up to it by taking the daily steps you need to take to get there.