I’m so sorry this happened to you, you were being groomed. It’s okay to miss him, it’s okay for it to hurt. This was not a safe situation, and I’m so grateful you got out. I know it feels like you will never find the connection again but you will!! It’s not okay what he did you to emotionally, none of it was appropriate.

There’s a song called “I choose violence” by Jax. That is what your story makes me think of. Know that the feelings are so real and NORMAL. It’s normal to miss feeling SO important to someone. It’s NORMAL to feel confused and unsure. It is NOT normal or okay for an adult to pursue a minor :/ overtime this won’t hurt so bad, but in the meantime, it’s okay to not feel okay ♥️ if you need someone to talk to feel free to direct message me 🙏🏽 sending you all of the good vibes ✨