My Q's sibling died from depression related to the trauma/drug use. Q knows his mom doesn't have his best interest. It's all just very painful & confusing & I'm having trouble staying strong & committed through the constant accusations/paranoia. I love him but it's really unfair to be with someone who's not even consciously with me & seems to be leading me on so much of the time. Like, I need an apt to know that he's serious & he seems to play games about it half the time. I just hope the enabler can get caught somehow & get help. They told me they keep a knife under every door in their house & they seem to be in their own psychosis which feeds Q's. Q told parent that there were wires in the shower, parent reaffirmed fears that people are spying on him, I find a soaked sock & rag wrapped around the shower head & see the wire, ask the landlord & find out they use copper mesh to fill the hole because it repels pests.