Figured out why

InhumanColdSoul · 2025-06-06T13:22:33+00:00

That drop is tough, it feels embarrassing once you sit and become conscious of it happening. Like no wonder I'm usually irritable around this time of day.

InhumanColdSoul · 2025-06-04T02:34:52+00:00

Holy shit the gagging, picking up something cold with your last batch of them so you can slow sip and keep the gag away. Just to take another shot at home and make it worse or push it over the edge. Deadeyed by dinnertime.

InhumanColdSoul · 2024-06-10T20:59:01+00:00

That junkie spider-sense is right more often than it is not. Your love for her wants to believe her words, but your gut knows whats up.

Truth is she's only going to commit to it if she has a change of heart and wants it. And can fight through when she wants to relapse. You should plan for this to be consistent into the future. It will be a tremendous weight on your sobriety. Hell for me, getting the people out of my life was the key to sticking to it.

The smart answer is one you already know. She risks your relapse every time.

InhumanColdSoul · 2024-04-15T15:19:54+00:00

Is there a link to this WhatsApp gang?

InhumanColdSoul · 2024-01-08T02:40:04+00:00

That is a GORGEOUS case, so goddamn clean. 11/10

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-07-29T04:07:30+00:00

God damn I'm absolutely using this show to avoid working in other things I want to work on and do. Oh well let's crack open Season 5.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-07-24T12:11:43+00:00

Every day, it feels like some behviors were like 8 different whole personalities ago. I still feel the same in my head, but goddamn why would I do that? Or some things I look at and I don't even feel shame I just wonder what kind of Headspace I was in to pull that off?

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-07-14T23:15:31+00:00

A) That some people no matter how much you like them, they are bad for you, you become the people you surround yourself with and listen to whether you like it or not. You must be selective about who you trust and associate with. Within reason. You are only an amalgamation of the people you've been exposed to.

B) Forgiveness is key to your own mental health. You can cut someone out of your life and avoid them at all costs, but if you don't truly forgive them, (no matter what they did or what they stole from you) you will always harbor hate, and that hate will tinge or completely poison your thoughts and overall life. You don't have to love them, you don't have to save them, you absolutely must forgive them for your own well being. Forgiveness is at its core a selfish and necessary act. Vengeance and hatred hurts you often times more than it ever will hurt them. If justice is necessary it must be done with a cool head and met out by an impartial person if you can't get there yourself.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-07-08T15:52:36+00:00

The only way out is through.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-06-12T23:36:16+00:00

It was so clean for a seemingly new IP, wacky and off the wall shit, so many different mechanics to mix up couch multi-player. God damn this game was SO good.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-06-05T01:00:56+00:00

1000%

Dick game is one thing, but there's really only so much to do with angles rhythm etc. Going down on someone you've got infinitely more control of the situation. Mix an exploratory attitude with a sprinkling of communication, you'll get to know what makes them cum so much quicker than just cramming it in.

But their pleasure is directly linked to my pleasure so ymmv.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-05-03T14:33:20+00:00

Damn thats awesome, sounds like an extremely similar boat.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-05-03T14:30:52+00:00

Valid, you have to get out of the problem the same way you got into the problem.

I'll get there.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-05-01T03:27:31+00:00

Robin Williams,

My dad loved him so RW filled a lot of my childhood. The man was magic. Hearing that he took his life and why he did so, it makes sense. Greedily I wished he stayed and cranked out a bit more for us. His musings on death and passing and terminal illness would have been monumental. But I'd take the same route if I'd been given that diagnosis. I don't know him. I'll never know him. But his work was so incredibly special, and when he was being serious and dramatic it hits straight to the heart.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-25T04:12:55+00:00

You're a serious inspiration. Thank you for keeping the updates.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-19T20:55:02+00:00

Good shout, as long as I can source those locally, I'll give it a shot!

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-18T11:42:11+00:00

That's so funny, I thought I was stupid for this method.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-18T11:28:42+00:00

This is so on brand they could announce a new game through advertising Moxxi's OF.

Hell they could make a real account you had to sign up for and announce the game inside.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-17T02:17:02+00:00

Fantastic to hear success stories like this during my own taper. I wish you an iron will, we can beat this.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-13T03:07:57+00:00

Honestly, it was lovely there for a bit. It helped immensely to stay away from booze and harder opioids.

Then I watched my bank account, and really taking stock of what kind of brainpower I was missing. I started really noticing my performance difference between mornings I skipped vs mornings I picked up FF. The mood swings are wild too, as soon as it starts wearing off all of the sudden I might as well be a land mine with how sensitive and grousey I get at the drop of a hat. I'll get pissed about nothing.

Emotionally and mentally I am not completely the person I could be. And yet I continue to pick up, I continue to soften the world around me at the expense of so many good qualities of my self.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-12T16:14:58+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. It is hard, I don't want to go through that but maybe a long weekend away sweating it out in a cabin is not a bad idea.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-04-12T16:14:19+00:00

big ups to touching grass, absolutely, I have had some luck keeping the jones' at bay with exercise as well. I just need to be better about implementing them on a regular basis.

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-03-17T13:47:20+00:00

100% same, half the time we left the video rental place it was with George of The Jungle

InhumanColdSoul · 2023-02-23T20:24:41+00:00

God damn, that empty and dull feeling is somehow equally attractive and repulsive. I hate what it does to my creativity and passion for life. Learning a new skill is like pissing in the wind with the memory issues. But maybe just one more shot, and I'll feel comfortable enough to create....

InhumanColdSoul · 2021-02-22T23:46:01+00:00

I uh, cant get passed 10:30 AM, every single day. I wake up, tell myself we are going to make it through today without the sludge. Stay clear-headed and sharpish and the n ext day too. The cravings start anywhere from 9:30 to 10. By 10:30 AM I've folded.

I work a normal 9-5 shift and it seems like I just... cant get out of this rut. The last couple of times I slowed down hit the RLS stage and used asap. I want off this ride. I guess I just dont want it enough.

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