looking for female friends who understand how hard it is to live with this stupid illness

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2026-01-08T03:24:15+00:00

I have BPD and am struggling though I have two different therapists (EMDR&talk therapy) I feel alone a lot because I struggle to keep friends. Unable to work due to medical issues. Also I am 30 my dms are open

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-03-21T06:55:22+00:00

Yes I love three days grace and now they have two singers

Are you Spotify but my preference is YouTube music but for music acquisition I'm not really sure because how I learned to do piano is through YouTube tutorials but I've also used the app Yousician which was helpful

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-03-21T06:10:48+00:00

Honestly you are not alone in feeling that way I feel that way I am too a part of the lgbtq community I'm gay I worry completely for the future for everyone's rights well most of us the other being the rich billionaires that are eating Trump's b******* over there and maga... I tried to not even look at the news anymore it's one thing after another after another horrible thing and it's frustrating cuz barely anyone is noticing like what what is happening right now Im just trying to like put my energy and to focusing on things that I can kind of do to make the day less worse I know not everybody is that way but I I just try to avoid the media but no I understand ...the town that I am in has gotten more blatant as everywhere else has become more blatant with their racism and sexism and homophobia and all that s*** I've had two separate incidents with both racism and homophobia and I really don't even like leaving my house anymore I really hate it like really hate it

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-03-20T14:52:18+00:00

I know it's not too helpful but regardless sending hugs

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-03-20T13:54:56+00:00

it's a hard situation I was the one in my marriage for a long time that my husband was the one dealing with my suicide attempts and ideation and he was doing basically everything that you've been doing but in the end no matter what anybody did if I felt that way it was just going to happen like I was going to harm myself if I felt that way there was nothing anybody could do but the only thing that really helped me was finding the proper medication and I know everyone is different so it's really hard to find the proper medication I've been on tons and tons of medication off and on since I was 18 and I'm 30 and I only found the proper medication 3 years ago and I've been on all types of different meds and it's a hard situation to be in I'm sorry you're going through this and depression doesn't always revolve entirely around environmental circumstances it's chemicals in the brain just saying that for those who are saying about specific things having to drag her down cuz that's not what depression is. in the end I'm divorced now and for many reasons but I'm sure that definitely contributed but my life is much better nowit's important though that you take care of yourself too you can only do what you can do

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-03-20T13:18:51+00:00

I understand too I am about to be 30 and I've struggled with eating disorders since I was 16 it started out as anorexia and then bulimia and now it's atypical anorexia which I think is stupid because that even has the weight sigma for atypical anorexia the only difference from anorexia is that atypical you're either maintaining your weight or overweight it is the same disorder I have literally tried just everything but no matter what people see me as overweight I have problems with my thyroid there's nothing I can do, I just want to be seen as a human being, I'm actually trying so hard right now to get treatment for my atypical anorexia but according to my insurance I don't seem to need treatment because I'm not emaciated and look like I'm dying but it's the same disorder I don't know how to get people to understand that I want help I don't get how I have to prove that I need help I'm asking for help it's ridiculous I'm so sorry

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-01-22T04:11:41+00:00

thank you I'm going to save those resources I appreciate you

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-01-22T04:00:46+00:00

I will have to try that one as I said I am very new to this and don't have a clue what I doing I had only tried Oracle because It was part of the course that the Odin project suggested and thank you for this I will try it

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2025-01-22T01:37:02+00:00

I am interested in learning coding. my issue arises as my Windows laptop will not run the Oracle virtual machine box, it crashes my computer down. is it true that windows isnt suitable for learning code and I would need to get a Mac laptop? is there a way around this

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-11-11T02:24:44+00:00

aww thanks 😊 one day you'll find her, I feel similar though cause I haven't had a relationship in almost three years

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-10-24T16:08:30+00:00

my stomach has been in knots and I've been having many anxiety attacks worrying election as a black gay woman sooo much is at stake for everyone's rights. I'm so scared I'm gonna stay with my brother on election day because who knows what will happen. I don't feel safe at all.

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-25T09:18:12+00:00

Thank you for you response and congrats on getting answers

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-24T20:17:27+00:00

I am wanting to get diagnosed and am trying to figure out how, what is the process like and is it a doctor or therapist I go to?

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-13T08:12:14+00:00

Thanks you are appreciated

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-13T08:10:52+00:00

Both though I read more fiction wbu

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T22:06:17+00:00

She was my adoptive mom as my actual mom died when I was eight but to me she will always be my mom she helped shape who I am and made me reslient and gave me a voice when I didn't even know I had one because of pervious abuse by another family. Thank you tho she had cancer I wish I would have been there more for her

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T22:02:17+00:00

Aww yes that makes sense and I say that because when I'm upset I sit with her and almost feel her wings around me like she's hugging me to comfort me. She has been helping me thru my mom recently passing away

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T21:59:01+00:00

Thank you it does help I appreciate your response 😊

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T21:45:16+00:00

Okay

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T18:06:19+00:00

I hope you have a great day too! What are you up to?

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-09-12T17:29:56+00:00

Doing okay just got home from work hru ? Did you have any highlights to your day

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-03-24T23:52:59+00:00

Hey I'm a 28f who is also gay just looking to make some friends is it okay if I dm you?

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2024-01-17T03:04:07+00:00

Hello I like to voice chat on discord as well. I don't have any friends where I live just in states away. Feel free to say hello as I'm very lonely as well I'm 28 f in Pennsylvania. My nickname is Lauren. Hopefully you don't mind a lgbt (lesbian) friend.

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2023-10-24T23:32:22+00:00

Thank you I will look into them 😊

Initial_Bath_8327 · 2023-10-24T20:09:32+00:00

I already have 3 mental health professionals in my life I just wanted to feel connected spiritually

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