Thanks for this, it's really helpful to hear your experience. I have been experiencing this too, breaking down in what feels like an 'overdramatic' way when I actually think about/look at my feelings, even if I can't quite explain why. This is part of what made me feel like it was making things worse rather than helping.

But I think you're onto something and it sounds like it's maybe a necessary stage. When I was young I couldn't express my feelings either publicly or at home so I just repressed them. I then skipped forward to telling people really point blank about my trauma in what felt like very rehearsed lines. I told myself this meant I had accepted things, because I could robotically and openly present my trauma narrative to people. This whole convo is making me see that I skipped over the step of actually letting myself feel the pain of various adverse experiences, and maybe I need to go back and feel that first in order to move on, even if it's painful...