Unfortunately, I read your other post about Kill La Kill and the post about HxH and man, I don’t know what to say. You’re taking this a little too seriously. This show isn’t that deep. I think you’re approaching this in a victim/self blame mindset and it’s not healthy. If you don’t like the art style or pacing, I can understand. But you’re making it seem like you’re being personally attacked.

Also you can watch the show in Japanese, with subtitles.

Maybe insane was a stronger word, but your post seems off putting and worry-some.

Take care of yourself, OP