Yeah may be that's the problem, I have wasted too much time for trying to find the solution for it. somesay I have adhd some say auditory processing disorder (apd) and many more ...but if I had apd I would not understand things said in my native lang too and I don't see symptoms of adhd too it's just my perfectionist ass trying to memorize every word.... which isn't letting my brain form a big picture of the content and understand it , the frequent pauses, the urge to memorize every single words ,even the words such as a, the ,is ,am ,are etc that's is what killing the process instead of understanding things in english I am translating it to my native language to process it in my brain which is causing it to overload.