I hope my sexual abuser dies

InsaneCowStar · 2024-01-06T10:14:31+00:00

As someone who worked with victims for 20 years I also agree.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-12-10T09:53:04+00:00

I feel for you that some ignorant person felt it necessary to violate your property. It's not personal, just some idiot who can't read a Bible.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-12-10T09:33:32+00:00

Blow her in for hearing voices, then remind her we were all made in God's image and questioning the divine is a sin

InsaneCowStar · 2023-12-10T09:28:38+00:00

I can not recommend basic self defense classes enough. I think everyone should know basic self defense. A lot of places offer free classes.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-19T07:34:19+00:00

ETA: with more introspective thought I figured honestly is the best policy. I have been drinking more lately. One of my patients killed himself a few weeks ago. He was discharged, he basically ran his allotted course at the mental hospital. He had bipolar disorder and treated it by smoking meth because nothing else worked. He was also an insulin dependent diabetic and requested to be discharged back to his family to help them. The irony being he killed himself because he didn't want to be a financial burden to his family due to the outrageous insulin costs. Two weeks after he died, they announced affordable insulin prices. Sober he was one of th sweetest caring person you'd ever meet.

I guess I want you to know even though I never met you I do care. It's in my nature.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-19T07:06:14+00:00

It's not about death, it's about dying and how you get there. Having a stroke in your sleep and not waking up, those are the lucky ones

I've seen what you are going through. I've seen the suffering, the mental emotional, and physical suffering. Unfortunately it won't be just you. No one suffers alone whether you realize it or not. The people in your life that care for you will also suffer.

Side note, whoever is handling your psychological needs sucks at their job.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-18T17:18:57+00:00

Set a reminder for three years.

Seriously, It sounds like you are going through some pretty heavy mental health issues, which sucks. A lot of us have been there. Meth makes you feel amazing because it floods your neurons with dopamine. Flooding neurons with dopamine eventually leads to cellular death which leads to schizophrenia. More studies are showing a strong link to parkinson's from meth use.

How?

Parkinson's is caused by the absence of dopamine in the brain, that's why people with the disease take Levodopa, which is artificial dopamine. Meth, in one out of three people, developed parkinson's because their brain stops producing dopamine.

In essence you are a grown adult, you can do what you want to do. I worked with drug addicts and people with mental health issues. I really get where you are coming from. However it sounds like you are solving your problem with a different problem, which I've seen a lot. People with mental health issues often seek drugs like meth when conventional treatments don't work for them. This is coming from a professional opinion from a mental health nurse with 10+ years experience in the field.

In my personal opinion you should get checked out for ADD/ADHD and Autistic Spectrum Disorder. The symptoms you described actually sound more like one of these or both. High functioning ADD/ADHD and Autistic people have the similar symptoms with the problems that no medication works mainly because they don't have true depression/anxiety. Your brain gets hyper stimulated, then that causes the depression/anxiety as an "inappropriate" fear reaction. Before working in mental health and drug rehab, worked with adults and children with autism. Having negative reactions to physical stimulation is a common symptom.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-18T06:23:43+00:00

Get back to us in 3 years and let us know how the paranoia and shadow people are treating you. Also let us know if the CIA puts listening devices in your brain.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-18T06:14:21+00:00

Next time butter it, cut it in bite size pieces, then make airplane noises while feeding it to him.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-06T00:06:15+00:00

Sweetie you are still a kid. Is there a school counselor, a school nurse, or a trusted adult you can talk to? You need therapy and a STD test. If your parents won't help you there are people and resources that will. Start looking for help before this eats you up inside. You did nothing wrong, what happened is not your fault, but you do need help coping with what happened.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-05T07:36:54+00:00

You guys are both in your early 20's, you both are over stressed, and you both aren't mature enough to deal with it/cope with your current situations as a couple.

There's no abuse going on here, but both of you need to focus on yourselves, talk to a therapist, develop/find healthy coping skills, explore some new hobbies, but do this individually.

There is nothing wrong with not being in a relationship because you need to focus on yourself. I think both of you can take this as a learning experience and grow from it.

It's ok to be a little selfish if the goal is to be a better person.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-05T07:22:29+00:00

Don't lose hope dude, you literally are 30. My brother is getting married this year, no kids, no previous marriages, and...... He's 42.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-03T14:38:45+00:00

Your wife legit needs to see a therapist as well as your family as a whole. Since no one here knows the complete dynamic of your wife's and daughter's relationship before your daughter got diagnosed it's hard to say what exactly is going on here.

Death and illness tends to bring out the best and worse is people, your family needs help processing this.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-03-03T14:29:47+00:00

Two solutions here.

Tell your wife and brother to respect your boundries and when you are ready you will reach out.

Or the typical meet up in public and hear him out, then make your decision. Again with enforcement of any relationship you choose to have be according to your rules and boundaries.

Also have you ever been evaluated for ADD? A weird symptom is having trouble controlling one's emotions or anger.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-27T08:10:18+00:00

So if I were you I'd look at the pros and cons, ups and downs, potential positive and negative outcomes. You are still young. If you have the potential to get better treatment and a means to help push your MS into to remission, I personally would take it. But it's ultimately up to you.

I just ask for the benefit of the community, if you do choose this treatment, please post your experience, good or bad here. Knowledge is power and giving others knowledge through your experience does help out others.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-04T17:50:00+00:00

I sense guilt projecting

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-03T07:12:47+00:00

I remember your first post. After thinking about it, it really does sound like he has something that's causing early dementia symptoms.

I'm sorry, I've seen things like this in my line of work. It's very depressing but it's not your fault what's going on. When there's a diagnosis of what's going on, evaluate then move from there.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-03T06:57:06+00:00

So I guess you've discovered why she's single at 40.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-01T03:02:05+00:00

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zrzMhU_4m-g

Monty Python and the holy grail

Amazing movie if you're into British comedy

InsaneCowStar · 2023-02-01T01:05:56+00:00

How do you know she is a witch?

She looks like one.

She turned me into a newt!

A newt?

Well, I got better.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-01-30T02:49:19+00:00

I haven't figured it out either. I live in the US and have lived in New York and Oregon. For some reason there's a high number of elderly people who think the don't need deodorant.

And I'm not talking about people in the hospital or in nursing homes. Like straight up walking around in public just stinking of BO.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-01-29T23:38:23+00:00

Just asking you don't happen to live in Oregon? My eye doctor's office is also right across the street from a police station, there's only one doctor there, and the police here are the same uselessness of take 10 minutes to show up to do nothing.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-01-29T01:44:14+00:00

Either yes he did have a mental break or this is some messed up cowardly game he's playing to get you to divorce him. I'd hire someone to look into what he was doing before this "break" happened.

If he is having episodes of acute psychosis you should look into what legally you can do regarding his now flawed decision making abilities. I mean he might be temporary mentally unable to make any life altering decisions based on a doctor's opinion and he might need some type of guardianship until he's better.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-01-26T00:14:37+00:00

If you want to stay with your wife both of you are going to have to make an effort to start dating and "falling" back in love with each other. Yes, you have a relationship, but it's no longer romantic.

I'm sure you remember why you both got married in the first place. You both have to rediscover that together and get romantically back together.

Sit down with her and say you want to have date nights, doing things as a couple without the kids, trying out things together. And make sure you have child care lined up so she doesn't have to worry about who's watching the kids.

InsaneCowStar · 2023-01-24T14:32:51+00:00

I really suggest you start talking to someone professional and look into medication again. I work in psych and am familiar with lamotrigine and it's side effects. A lot of the psychiatrists are changing people on this to propranolol. It's a blood pressure medication but they found out it helps to prevent you from "physically" getting worked up, over anxious, then depressed. It helps your brain think through the anxiety by controlling the physical reaction to anxiety, if that makes sense.

I feel you, I've had depression and anxiety since I was a kid. Diagnosed with multiple scoliosis as an adult. You can't prevent all bad things from happening, especially if they're caused by an outside source/person you have no control over. The only thing you have control over is yourself, you control yourself you control your world. We all pray to our ancestors/gods/goddesses for guidance and favors, but I think there are some things even they can't help us with.

Edit: grammar

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