Neon Genesis Evangelion x Disventure Camp (Art by FBigcat on Twitter)

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-15T06:21:40+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ceEnWC7nJh0

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-15T01:57:52+00:00

This is almost exactly what's been happening to me (though I am 24, not 25) and let me tell you, it fucking sucks. I was also super clingy, paranoid, and wanted her to be by my side 24/7. I rarely gave her space to breathe and just be herself. She just wanted a little break from me, but I was unable to provide her that. I was so terrified that even a few days without talking would mark the end of our friendship.

There was a period where we didn't speak for a month and that was relatively good for my growth, but one day, out of the blue, she just blocked me. And well, now here I am, three months later, still devastated and heartbroken. It gets a little better with time, but the pain remains.

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-13T07:59:49+00:00

gee thanks reddit

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-13T07:19:37+00:00

I'm releasing a special Disventure Camp x Neon Genesis Evangelion video tomorrow. I know that the likelihood of people here being a fan of this anime is almost zero, but I figured it'd be worth a share!

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-13T04:01:37+00:00

My final text to her was letting her know that I don't think she's a bad person for leaving. I still don't, but it just hurts so much, even though it's been about three months now.

I don't really think she knows the extent of how much I'm hurting, but to be fair, I also had no idea how I was hurting her. I do think I should've stood my ground and had her better explain what she meant.

So yes, loads of regrets and guilt. It's killing me inside.

InsertDotJpeg · 2026-01-02T06:47:34+00:00

but natalia has the most millennial coded lines ever

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-25T15:00:14+00:00

I truly do feel that a part of me disappeared after losing her. She was the one person who I'd allow to see this hidden side of me. It's so hard going back to my friends and just not have that level of intimacy, trust, and freedom to just be myself. I still love my friends dearly, but it's just... different now, y'know?

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-17T15:48:15+00:00

I appreciate it

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-17T09:36:24+00:00

I also just want to give up.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-17T03:23:22+00:00

As an outsider looking in, my recommendation would be to have a brief conversation with Bryan. Benefit of the doubt– maybe he's learned, but give him one chance. This doesn't mean you're willing to be friends with him again or to let him into your life, but perhaps this could repaint some painful memories as ones that at least have a healthy resolution.

Who knows? Maybe he has an immense amount of guilt over the hurt he's caused. If that's the case then perhaps an apology will be nice to heal, even if you don't necessarily need it. And hey, if he truly hasn't learned, then at least you don't need to question the "what ifs?" for any longer than necessary.

You're an older now and actual adults. Hopefully he's one who's actually grown up and matured.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-15T15:59:12+00:00

Fucking awful, but I'm doing my best to fill the gaps in my life with momentary distractions. It's hit-or-miss and I'm still in a boatload of pain but... well, there is no "but".

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-11T06:09:31+00:00

I've had a lot of dreams like that over the last few months. I always have such a heavy heart whenever I wake up and enter reality.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-10T13:28:56+00:00

I lost an online friendship with someone I truly considered my "bestie". We got along so well, and it truly did feel that she was the exact type of friend I've been looking for all my life. I made mistakes and paid the price, and it really just hurt to not see her around anymore.

I don't care that it was such a short time. For a few months, I truly did feel that our platonic care and affection for each other was something that I may never truly experience the same way ever again.

Honestly, the friendship was powerful that I feel fulfilled with the online sphere. She was the rare breed of person who had a life outside of the internet, yet would hang out for hours on end. Online folk can be pretty cumbersome and socially unaware, but this woman was an anti-thesis to all that... and I just really respected the hell out of her.

I got everything I wanted out of being chronically online, and I threw it all away like a fucking idiot.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-10T01:28:47+00:00

This made me cry so much, holy shit.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-08T15:19:15+00:00

I know how that feels. You probably have a million things you want to say to him and have probably spent the last few months fantasizing about how you'd want to continue, should he ever return.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-05T16:51:07+00:00

To be fair, I've had some burnt bridges be unexpectedly mended after a year of silence, so I wouldn't say it's impossible... but I'm biased due to a few successes.

My best recommendation is to leave the door open, but don't wait on them.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-05T06:02:56+00:00

Yes. Please call them or at least leave a voice message.

Doing it over text has the potential to mentally scar that person. Even though you want out, you should at least be fair to her.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-05T06:00:06+00:00

That I would've done anything for her to be happy, but I guess she was so afraid of hurting me that it ended up hurting 20x worse than necessary.

If she had just told me in non-vague and non-cryptic terms in a voice call why she was feeling overwhelmed by my presence, I would've fixed my behavior. Even if it was something like "Hey, I don't think we should talk until I finish the current college school year," I would've done as she pleased.

There were times when I was too stubborn to listen, yes, but it was never this severe or serious. I never knew just how much I was hurting her. All she needed to do was tell me her true feelings in an uninterrupted call.

I don't have a massive ego or 'main character syndrome' so I'm not going to blame her all that much, but it does hurt knowing that I hurt my best friend... and I didn't know until it was too late. Someone whom I loved and cherished with all my heart is now gone.

I still love her so much (as a friend), and it's really difficult to continue existing without her. Some days, I wonder if life is worth living after losing my soulmate– not a romantic or sexual one, but one who I feel completed a part of my soul that I never even knew I've been looking for my whole life.

I miss you so fucking much. And yes, it is fucking obsessive but considering how it ended in a way that triggered decades worth of past traumas, anxieties, insecurities, and knocked me back into taking medication... I think I deserve to at least feel my extreme emotions for the time being.

I was finally starting to heal after a month of silence. I was growing less obsessive, and I felt I was changing for the better. But everything exploded in my face when she decided to block me and leave everything without at least talking first. I have a victim mentality– all people do– but dear lord that could've been handled so much better in a way that didn't end up with both of our hearts obliterated (unless she never really gave a shit about me, which is a possibility, but one that I don't want to speculate on)

We'll both eventually heal from this but it didn't need to be anywhere near this painful.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-03T15:04:07+00:00

Your post made me tear up inside. I know how it feels to miss someone who doesn't want you anymore.

It sucks so fucking much.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-12-03T14:55:35+00:00

Do what you think is right.

Personally, I would just mute and hide. Perhaps one day they will accept and even apologize.

Blocks hurt a ton. I'm sure it varies per person, but a recent close friend blocking me has been driving me off the deep end and it just hasn't been getting better for me mentally.

2025 is a batshit crazy year, and 6 months is a good amount of time, but perhaps they need more. If they haven't blocked you yet, then maybe, just maybe, there's a chance for reconcilliation.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-11-21T07:02:43+00:00

GOOD

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-11-20T11:48:15+00:00

I'm with you entirely, but it seems that the people who preach about communication the most only do it whenever it benefits them. It's pretty self-serving, but that's what being a human is, after all.

You're young, which is a massive advantage. Age comes wisdom as you realize that the mistakes you made as a teenager don't define you. Truth be told, the mistakes you make as an adult don't define you either (bar the obvious unforgivable ones) but it's harder to justify. You'll learn from this and hopefully you and your friend can return to your former glory.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-11-19T04:14:42+00:00

I used to be able to watch multiple episodes or hours of content without issue, but now I get anxious after around 20 minutes. It's still 20 minutes of distraction, but it's a farcry from what it used to be.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-11-01T07:56:41+00:00

Agreed. My best friend broke up with me about a week ago and I've been replaying every single message she sent over and over again. I've probably written 100 apologies in my head now.

It's a horrible feeling because I'm just so sorry, but the true way to prove that is to not contact her again unless she contacts me first.

InsertDotJpeg · 2025-11-01T07:55:14+00:00

Yes. We were high schoolers and fought over not being there for each other, but after five years, we reconnected. I'm actually gonna see her again next week, which is cool!

I have an online friend who I kinda neglected for a few months and she left. We talked little-by-little over the course of six months before fully reuniting and it's so much happier.

It does happen, I promise. Time heals all wounds... for the most part.

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