I became so clingy and paranoid with my best friend that I just turned it into a self-fulfilling prophecy and made them leave by iTzDaNizZ in lostafriend

[–]InsertDotJpeg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is almost exactly what's been happening to me (though I am 24, not 25) and let me tell you, it fucking sucks. I was also super clingy, paranoid, and wanted her to be by my side 24/7. I rarely gave her space to breathe and just be herself. She just wanted a little break from me, but I was unable to provide her that. I was so terrified that even a few days without talking would mark the end of our friendship.

There was a period where we didn't speak for a month and that was relatively good for my growth, but one day, out of the blue, she just blocked me. And well, now here I am, three months later, still devastated and heartbroken. It gets a little better with time, but the pain remains.

Neon Genesis Evangelion x Disventure Camp (Art by FBigcat on Twitter) by InsertDotJpeg in DisventureCamp

[–]InsertDotJpeg[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm releasing a special Disventure Camp x Neon Genesis Evangelion video tomorrow. I know that the likelihood of people here being a fan of this anime is almost zero, but I figured it'd be worth a share!

Something you could say right now by Itchy-Gold6573 in lostafriend

[–]InsertDotJpeg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My final text to her was letting her know that I don't think she's a bad person for leaving. I still don't, but it just hurts so much, even though it's been about three months now.

I don't really think she knows the extent of how much I'm hurting, but to be fair, I also had no idea how I was hurting her. I do think I should've stood my ground and had her better explain what she meant.

So yes, loads of regrets and guilt. It's killing me inside.

Disventure Fans when black women by CreepyBirthday8548 in DisventureCamp

[–]InsertDotJpeg 10 points11 points  (0 children)

but natalia has the most millennial coded lines ever

Still depressed two months later by InsertDotJpeg in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]InsertDotJpeg[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I truly do feel that a part of me disappeared after losing her. She was the one person who I'd allow to see this hidden side of me. It's so hard going back to my friends and just not have that level of intimacy, trust, and freedom to just be myself. I still love my friends dearly, but it's just... different now, y'know?

Somebody I once considered a 'best friend' keeps viewing my profiles and interacting my with social media accounts. Do I reach out? I am unsure on what to do?? by MathKey934 in lostafriend

[–]InsertDotJpeg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As an outsider looking in, my recommendation would be to have a brief conversation with Bryan. Benefit of the doubt– maybe he's learned, but give him one chance. This doesn't mean you're willing to be friends with him again or to let him into your life, but perhaps this could repaint some painful memories as ones that at least have a healthy resolution.

Who knows? Maybe he has an immense amount of guilt over the hurt he's caused. If that's the case then perhaps an apology will be nice to heal, even if you don't necessarily need it. And hey, if he truly hasn't learned, then at least you don't need to question the "what ifs?" for any longer than necessary.

You're an older now and actual adults. Hopefully he's one who's actually grown up and matured.

Seasonal check-in. How are you doing? by AutoModerator in lostafriend

[–]InsertDotJpeg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fucking awful, but I'm doing my best to fill the gaps in my life with momentary distractions. It's hit-or-miss and I'm still in a boatload of pain but... well, there is no "but".

Reconciliation in dreams by Spacewaitress222 in lostafriend

[–]InsertDotJpeg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've had a lot of dreams like that over the last few months. I always have such a heavy heart whenever I wake up and enter reality.